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Wooooooot! =P Anyhoo. Since I use proxy to open Friendster in the office, and for some reasons proxies don't make me publish posts here in this blog, saving it as drafts instead, blog updates are always at my other blog.

As you all know, I'm a devotee of sloth and copy-pasting from that to my Friendster and Blogspot blogs defies that. So there, since you're not as a sloth as me, just go click the link above or, if it didn't work, go figure out for yourself a way to get there. Nyahah.

Anyhoo, I copy-pasted 4 entries here before posting this. I'm not sure if by the time you read this, copy-pasted entries from there here are up to date. Woot! Harhar!

Respecting Other People's Preferences

Shanky called me up yesterday to update me on his job hunting eklavoos. He said Lean called him yesterday and told him about Eckelz wanting to resign from his current job. Shanky said, "Grabe naman! Ang swerte swerte na niya sa work niya. Network Admin Assistant??? Ang ganda ganda ng ng pwesto niya, gusto pa niya umalis dun?" He was like, if Eckelz is right in front of him he could have given him a malupit na batok. Sabi pa niya, "Yun yung pinapangarap kong trabaho. Nakakainis naman si Eckelz, ayaw pa niya dun." And then I asked him how much is Eckelz compensation, he said Eckelz gets about 12K a month, and then Shanky kept on saying, "Kung ako yun ayos na sa akin yung ganung sweldo basta gusto ko yung trabaho ko. Nakakainis talaga si Eckelz!" Then he noticed that I'm kinda quiet while he was ranting his ass out about it. He then asked me, "Ikaw? Ayaw mo ba ng ganung trabaho?" and I answered him no. "Hindi naman dahil maganda yung trabaho na yun para sayo maganda na rin yun para sa iba. Parang ikaw, gusto mo networking stuff, ako ayoko ng networking kasi alam ko masmageexcel ako sa programming, pero ikaw ayaw mo rin ng programming kasi alam mo sa networking ka magaling, di ba?" Woot! Although I told him a couple of times already that maybe Eckelz' work preferences is different from his and that he should just let Eckelz be, he still didn't stopped ranting. Harhar!

It's kinda like letting people be no matter how grrr it is for you if you are in that person's shoes. Buhay niya yon. We have to accept the fact that people has their own preferences. They take their own choices and make their own decisions. They are the one who are living their lives, not us, so why the hell bother waste whatever if it won't affect you in any way naman, right? Not unless of course if you know that it will do him harm, not just to your own insight but to others, too, then that's the only time that you should butt in. Yung mga tipong gusto niya tumalon ng building kinda stuff. Harhar! Korniness.. =P

You should just let people be and live according to their own preference. It's okay to give advices or opinions but don't insist on them doing or believing the same way you do or told them. Don't expect to share the same happiness with everyone. If someone finds fulfillment in bitching around, then let them be. If someone finds happiness in disrupting other people's peace, then let them be. If someone wants to believe in the total opposite of what you believe in, then let them be. It's okay to try to make them do as you would but keep in mind that the choice is still his or hers. Buhay niya yun. Unless alam mong magiging kargo yun sayo o sa utak mo, kung dun siya masaya, pakialam mo ba?

WOOOOOT! =P

Gudlak-Pamster Week @_@

Last week I thought this week would be just another petix week in the office, only with some meetings about the tasks for our team's big project which we have to make through while our team lead is on leave for three weeks and Vinny acting as dev team lead on her behalf. Woot! Heheh.

Anyhooness. Monday. AJ and I were texting until around 3:30 AM in the morning, as we always do while he is doing call boy's work and I doing online window shopping in multiply, nyahah. When I told him that I'm going to dream land already, that's when he told me that it is her mom's birthday and that I have to come to Fairview. Huwatdapak, mehn?!? Going there without worrying about my mom's wrath means I have to work Shift A, which is 7 AM to 4 PM. I know I can wake up easier when I stay up uber late than sleeping effin early but it needs some conditioning eklavoos. I should atleast get 3 hours sleep so I won't get migraine-like headaches while watching movies in the office, wooot! Heheh. So there, I slept at around 4 AM, woke up at around, okay, around quarter to 7, took a very quick shower, then left for work at around 7:30, got to the office just in time for shift B, 8 AM to 5 PM.

Since I was informed about going to AJ's mom's birthday party at the uber wee hour of the morning and since I have to be early for work so I can leave early, yeah boi, I didn't have a gift for his mom. Grrr. But then I had this evil plan. I would go out during lunch break and buy her a big jar of her uber loved cow's milk pastillas, and where's that? In Greenhills, mehn! Yeah boi! =P And then I remembered that I saw Sitsitrya has a website, that's where I discovered that Sitsitrya has a permanent stall in Tiendesittas. Whew! But since I have a scheduled meeting at 11-12, I had to eat lunch before that meeting. Then off to Tiendesittas 15 minutes before 12.

When I got there, I went straight to Sitsirya to buy that big jar of pastillas and then headed to Fashion Village. Nyahah! Oo! Nagshopping pa muna ako bago bumalik ng office! It's because I'm wearning my Happy People Gurango uniform, and I feel a little dugyot already since I walked a million miles from IPI to Tiendesittas, so I figured I need to buy something decent to wear to Perbyu later. I don't wanna look dugyot in front of AJ's relatives. Ayos lang sana kung sila mommy alfon, lola alfon and tita Marie lang yung andun, they always see me dugyot naman. Anyhoo. 20 minutes of roaming around Tiende, I bought this puffed sleeved kikay shirt for only 100 then walked a million miles again to IPI. I was back in the office at around 1:05, still able to catch GYC having lunch outside Cebu. Heheh.

I also had another meeting scheduled for yesterday afternoon. Kahit pala pumasok ako ng 7 hindi rin pala talaga ako makakaalis ng 4 kasi 3:30 to 4:30 pala yung meeting ko, akala ko 3 to 4. Anyhoo. After the meeting, while Vinny was stealing my toothpaste as part of his daily routine, sabi ko sa kanya sabay na ako. That's a few minutes after AJ reminded me about SONA. I can't take Jayross to Fairview dahil ang mga aktibista at mga raliyista ay kasalukuyan nga palang nagpipiket sa Commonwealth dahil sa SONA. So he said we should just meet in SM North and take SM Fairvew FX from there. Sloth attack again, I thought of taking the Cubao route to MRT para 1 ride na lang, and since Vinny will also take LRT 2 in Cubao, sasabay na ako. But less than 5 minutes before 5 PM, Vinny was summoned by Augsie to sign something for their "group" certification exam on Friday. And then he was like, "Pamster, sama ka na sa Friday!" backed up by Augsie. And then without a single second of thinking, I said, "Geh na nga, pwede pa ba mag reg?" WOOOT! So there... Instant SQL Certification Exam come this Friday, meaning having to review Test King for only 3 days. Nyahah. Is this CCNA Certification Exam part two? Harhar.

Grrr. It was so traffic. And when I got to Cubao station of MRT at around 6 already, the line to the ticket booth was so effin long. Grrr. I'm not used to this anymore. Heheh. I got to Trinoma at around 6:30. AJ said he's still in a far far away place so I decided to do, again, some shopping at Landmark. Nyahah. I was looking for a cheap pair of firetruck red pants and found one for only 279 pesos. Too bad, I wasn't able to buy it because AJ texted me already. We were in a hurry, kaya ayon, hindi ko na siya nabili. Babalikan ko na lang siya some other time. Harhar!

When we got to the Fx terminal, okay fine, loooooong queue again, so we walked a million miles to SM North's Fx terminal to find, again, a loooooooonger queue. There's also something uber funny happened. Harhar! Well, for me it is. Nyahah. While we were walking, AJ all of a sudden just stopped and asked two ubeeer kikay gurls, one in yellow skinnies and green razor back top and the other... Uhmmm.. I really can't remember, but I'm pretty sure she's also colorful, heheh. Usually, AJ is a little hesitant when we need to ask manong guards if we're in lost kiddos mode, but that time with those colorful kikays, aside from it was so so sudden, no signs of hesitation can be sensed. Nyahah. I know some gurls might react to it by getting uber angry or something like it, but I can't help but laugh. I know for the fact that it was a total normal guy instinct to do stuff like that, but not in front of their girlfriends! Harhar!

Anyhoo. Since Fx lines where so uber crowded, we decided to take a cab after we bought cake at Red Ribbon for her mom. We got to their house a few minutes past 8 already. It's kinda like eat and run, because after we ate, her mom was insisting that we need to go because she doesn't want me to be home late and AJ also has work at 10. Nyahah. We left their house at around 9:10. Hindi man lang kami nakapaglandian kahit ilang minuto lang. Nyahah. I was home at around 11.

Monday pa lang yan, guys. Habaness! Heheh.

Okay. Now Tuesday. Heheh. I am scheduled today for my Developer Evaluation meeting with big boss Sir Joey and Miss Eya. I know the meeting is at 11AM. I was not at all in a hurry when I woke up at around 7. I was in my bed, texting AJ, until around 8:30, when AJ stopped replying, the green light indicating he's asleep already and I have to get up from bed to take a bath. I was at our gate at 9:40, and as soon as I had my ass on the tricycle's back ride, I received a message from Miss Eya. "Aabot ka naman ng 10 para sa meeting d b?" I was like, "SIYET!!" Taxi mode! I arrived at the office at 9:56. Wheew! Nyahah.

So there, Dev Eval meeting with Sir Joey and Miss Eya. My heart was surprisingly not pumping like there's no tomorrow but instead it kinda like stopped beating. Harhar! The result of the eval was okay. I was given an above average mark, but I know it's still not as high as my other monstrous dev officemates like Timmy Tammy, Vinny, and Ralph. I know I'm ranked below them all. Heheh. But still, I'm so relieved that I had met most of their expectations, and even exceeded on some, as they claimed, heheh. My move out fund will definitely increase. Woohoo! Kahit gaano kaliit na increase man yun, woohoo pa rin! Harhar!

With my instant certification exam this Friday, I should be memorizing TestKing right now, but my brain's just too lazy for that right now, so instead, look at what I'm doing... Nobela blogging again. Nyahah. Good luck to me on Friday! Let's see if the landeeh plans AJ and I had for Friday afternoon after my exam can still push through. Nyahah.

Owkaeipaynwatebur! Woot!

Noticing that my Firefox's bookmark lists is getting way too effin looong, I decided to clean the list up a bit. To my surprise, I found a bookmark of someone's blog. I had stopped reading it ages ago when I finally decided that I'll let that person be and ignore all poop she poops. If you can't help people in their pitiful state, just pray for them kinda stuff. Woot!

Anyweiz. I read through that person's recent blog entries, just a few, heheh, only some of those in the home page of that person's blog, and surprisingly, I found entries that kinda made me chuckle. Woot!

The first chuckle-worthy thing I read there was when she gloriously claimed that I had stopped blogging because of her. Grrr stuff made me stop doing happy blogging, but is happy blogging all I ever blog about? Technically, what really made me stopped blogging AGAIN was combined SLOTH and a lot of movies currently shared in our office network. Couch potato mode even at the office, yeah boi! Harhar!

Second. Nyahah. I don't "snoop" around reading other people's stuff to get "inside scoops" or whatever. I had stopped reading even my uber loved officemates' and friends' blogs because of, again, SLOTH. And ever since she was removed from someone's friends' list and I didn't have any access to her PRIVATE friendster profile, I thought I also lost access to her blog that is why I never even dared trying to access it. Not until now that I discovered that blogs of users with private profiles can still be accessed. Nyahah. Okay fine, I admit on looking at their group's friendster account once in a while to "snoop" on new albums to find new pictures to laugh my head off about, but that happens only like once every two weeks, not as frequent as seeing that account's headshot on my "Who Viewed Me" list which I clean up every 4 days, AT MOST. Harhar!

Owkeipayn. I guess letting her be still didn't make her happy. Nyahahah. I don't know if it will make her feel better, which I totally doubt, but I would delete her blog on my bookmarks after posting this, heheh. Again, as I always say... You can't force people to understand or leave you alone, all you can do is let them be and just pray for them. Woot! =P

Waldas Saturdays At MOA

It's already 3:59 in the morning, and yeah, here's the much awaited mood for happy blogging! Woohoo! Finally! Harhar... Although I still won't be blogging about Porky Pam's first birthday, nor my first saGuijo experience, I will be blogging now about two consecutive Saturdays of a whole lotta spendin' in MOA. Nyahah.

PART I : July 19, 2008

Last Saturday, Porky and I decided to go to MOA to watch Dark Knight on a regular MOA Cinema. Wuhla lang, trip lang namin sa MOA kasi sukang suka na kami sa Galeria at Megamall. Harhar! Anyhoo. We got to MOA at around 2 PM because as I had checked online movie skeds, there was Dark Knight sked at 2:30 in iMax. Yup! I really wanted iMax that's why I checked the iMax sked although we already agreed on watching in on regular cinema. Harhar! When we finally managed to discover where the cinemas are, we saw this effin long line of people on the ticket booth. Then I told Porky, "Tchera! Tchera! Let's watch Dark Knight on iMax na lang!" We were like lost kids looking for the iMax's effin location, harhar! When we finally got there, the only available tickets are for the 8PM showing, at the very last row. AJ has to go to his grrrrrr work at 10PM and as we know, Dark Knight is almost 3 hours long, so what we did was we bought tickets na lang for the 2:30PM showing next Saturday. Harhar.

After reserving tickets at the iMax we went to the SM Science Discovery Center. Harhar! We didn't really see whatever everyone has to pay 350 pesos for but we kinda had fun looking at the kewl toys at the store beside the ticket booth. Nyahah... We were so amazed by the kewl 3D puzzles of dragons and animal anatomies, especially the pig. Harhar! We also found kewl toys in eggs that you have to buy tokens because it's like in a gum ball machine. He really wanted the Mario Kart eggies. Aheheh. I also found there a pinhole camera for about 400 pesos, so effin cheaper than Lomo cams that you can use to take pinhole pictures, which cost about 2000 and more. Harhar!

Since we were not able to do what was really intended, we decided to do food trip instead. Harhar! We already ate at McDonald's near Mapua Makati before we came to MOA where each of us ate a regular burger, an upshaked fries, and one and a half spaghetti plus orange juice. Heheh. Then while at MOA, I don't know if it can still be considered as food trip, hahah, but we had large chocolate shakes from a stall there that has a picture of a bear, then we bought some brownies, ate them while we were walking around MOA, and then we bought kewl smoothies from Juice Avenue before we walked a few minutes near the bay. Harhar.

PART II : July 26, 2008

AJ said he will be at my house at 9 since our original plan for the day was to make potato salad in the morning, then get his hair cut in Galeria, then MOA! Heheh.. At around 9:10 he texted me saying that he was currently in a Jayross bus, which is his favorite bus from Fairview to Galeria, or vice versa. Harhar. When he arrived De Castro at around 10 AM, we first accompanied Yay to the vet to have Misty checked up for her cough. After that we did some happy happy bonding before I took a bath. We left De Castro at 12 noon, arrived in Galeria at around 1PM where I had to change from my just-above-the-knee shorts to a semi-pekpek shorts as AJ begged for a kikay outfit, specifically a kikay blouse and a kikay pekpek shorts, a few days ago. Harhar!

We thought we would make it to MOA just in time for us to eat before our reserved 2:30 iMax chuvaness. But grrrr. Traffic was so grrrr, we got to MOA less than 5 minutes before 2:30. We went straight to McDo, since it's the nearest fast food chain and because I want Shake Shake Fries, to buy food for take out. Kung minamalas nga naman... The crew that was serving us is still new and he kept on making mistakes about our orders and on punching it in. AJ and I was like "Owmaygad, 2:30 naaaa, oh pleaasseee..." Hahah. When we got to iMax, to our relief, the movie hasn't started yet and they were just staring to let people in. Harhar.

After watching the movie, the original plan for what will we do next was grrrrrly shattered by something that can't be really planned when to happen and when not, so we just strolled. Harhar. =P We went to the department store to buy the long overdue umbrella we promised yay as replacement for the umbrella she lent AJ that he left in a bus. Then we went to Watsons for some kikay needs.

AJ said he wanted to have coffee somewhere, sabi ko "Tchera! UCC tayo.." Harhar! At first, I kinda sensed AJ really wanted to stay there because of the view and because it was kinda breezy there. Harhar. He was really enthusiastic about it, until he got his eyes on the menu and found out how expensive the meals are there. Harhar. So, as originally planned naman talaga, we just ordered coffee but I insisted on ordering a chocolate crepe, nyahah. I would pay half naman of the bill eh, kasi ako may kasalanan kung bakit kami nasa UCC, sabi ko kasi sa pagkakaalala ko nung kumain ako dati dun nasa 200 plus lang yung mga pasta nila. Harhar. Pero kahit papaano, after we got surprised by the regular fireworks display every Friday and Saturday at 7PM, which we didn't know about, it somewhat lightened the weight of the wallet bleeding AJ and I was enduring. It was really kewl! Almost 600 pesos just for two coffee and a chocolate crepe, nyahah.

After eating, since it's already past 8 and AJ has work at 10 at the far north and we're in the south, we decided to go home already. Heheh. We tried to discover a new way to get to Galeria from MOA aside from what we did last week where we rode a Jeep to MRT and walk so so so faaaaar to where buses load passengers. We decided to wait for any bus we can ride there at the place where bus dropped us off on our way to MOA, that place near the big globe. We tried that already last week but we had no luck, but this time we saw a bus with an "Ortigas Ilalim" and "Cubao" sign. Without hesitation, AJ and I boarded it. Harhar.

While we were being mushy for a few minutes in the bus already, we then noticed that we still aren't in Edsa. That's when we realized, "Oh no! Round trip beh itech?" Nyahah. It was my first time to see a real life tarmac so near, and it was so kewl! Nyahah. I don't even know where NAIA is, all I know is that I'm seeing it right there. Nyahah. SO there, lateness galore to AJ. But what the heck? It was equal to more time with each other, making landeeh, heheh.

Today is Poyky Pam's 13th Monthsary, yehey! Yehey! I love my Porky uber much... I hope I get to have more days like these with him.. Heheheh...

Happy happy happy.... ^_________^

Hindi Nga, Buhay Pa?

Ang hirap talaga ma-ambush ng panibagong monster kapag kagagaling mo lang sa isang boss at halos paubos na ang HP at MP mo pati na rin mga ka-ekekang pang-heal eklavu. Muntik na naman akong mamatay ng hindi oras. Haayyzz. Yun lang masasabi ko.

Another sick metaphor, watdamadafakinpak?

Ultimate Martyr's Song?

It's almost 3 in the effin early morning. I don't even consider it morning. It's still part of my night. Harhar. In this effin everybody else's wee hour, I'm singing this effin song at the top of my lungs. Nyahah. Sorry na, late reaction na naman ako sa mga nauusong kanta sa main stream ng radio. I just feel this song uber much. So martyrs' song, so me. Hahah. I was actually looking for the title of the song with the lines "how do I get to our love" eklavu, but it turned out that the real lyrics was what I originally thought it was but thought was kinda funny in the ear and sounds a little rapist so I made myself believe that "how do i get you alone" was really "how do I get to our love." Harhar. Then I found this song's title in a list at the page's side, got curious and clicked it. So there, now that I knew I can effin relate to every bit of the effin lyrics, I can't stop singing it. And it's effin 3AM in everyone else's effin MORNING! Harhar. I believe this is the second time, for all my years of blogging, that I'll post song lyrics. Harhar.

Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis lyrics
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

Stress Ball Mode

Ang aga-aga, isang malaking GRRR na kaagad. Nakakainis talaga. Wala pang 7:30 ng umaga, nakaupo lang naman ako sa kama, hawak ko yung fone ko na kasasaksak ko lang para i-charge, akalain mong nagawan pa iyon ng issue? "Ano ba yan? Puro na lang sa lalaki umiikot yan buhay mo. Magasawa na nga kayo! Kapag oras ng pagaayos para sa pagpasok mo sa trabaho 'wag mo na haluan ng panlalalaki mo. Mahirap humanap ng trabaho ngayon, tapos lagi kang late!" WTF? 7:30 pa lang ng umaga, anong oras ba ako umaalis ng bahay? 9:30. Sakto na yon para dumating ng saktong 10:00 sa office. Hayzz.

Pero kasi ganito ang pinaghugutan niyan eh. Kahapon kasi pumunta si AJ ng maaga sa bahay, may dalang pancakes galing sa Pancake House. Gabi pa lang kasi sabi na niya breakfast daw kami ng sabay, pero akala ko drawing lang yon, hindi pala. Katext ko pa siya bago ako bumangon nun sa kama, at wala talagang kahint-hint na bigla na lang siyang dadating dun sa bahay na may dalang pancakes. Dumating siya siguro mga bago mag-8 ng umaga.

Eto kasi yung normal morning routine ko. 6 pa lang tumutunog na yung alarm clock ng fone ko. Babangon ako kaagad pero actually lilipat lang ako ng kwarto sa 2nd floor, dun sa kwarto talaga namin. Kapag kasi nagpaabot pa ako sa kwarto sa baba ng mga 7 uuratin na ko ng nanay ko sa pagising sa akin. Pagkalipat ko sa 2nd floor matutulog ulit ako hanggang mga 8:30 tapos direcho ligo, bihis, pasok. Usually sa office na ko nagbre-breakfast kasi oatmeal lang tinatangap ng tiyan ko sa umaga tsaka wheat bread.

So ayon nga. Eh 'di sabay nga kami nagbreakfast dun sa bahay namin. Hindi naman ako masyadong worried sa time kasi nga ang aga-aga pa naman. Siyempre, alam ko naman ang oras ko 'di ba? So natapos kami magbreakfast mga 9, manonood din kasi siya ng laro ng Lakers at Celtics habang naliligo ako. Eh bago pa ako maligo tinignan ko muna yung opening chuvaness nung game. Sa akin, alam ko naman kasi na 20 minutes lang ako maligo so hindi pa rin ako worried sa time kahit na 9 na nun, tsaka usual p ngang start ng pagligo ko kapag wala si AJ mga 9:15 pa nga eh. So ayon nga, tinignan ko muna yung opening kalandian nung game, sakto biglang umakyat si Ma. Gulat na gulat siya dahil hindi pa ako nakakaligo. Nagalit pa siya sa akin, "Ano ba talaga masmahalaga sayo? Magasawa na nga kayo! Ang hirap hirap maghanap ng trabaho, ayus-ayusin mo nga buhay mo!" Woot! Eh kung tutuusin nga ang ang aga pa nun, 9 pa lang, eh yung normal nga na ligo ko 9:15 minsan nga 9:30 na. Hayzz lang. Nung umalis nga kami ni AJ ilang minutes earlier pa yun sa usual na alis ko kapag umaga. Ang aga pa nga namin dumating ng office eh, considering na tumayo pa kami ng matagal dun sa may tawiran sa Countryside dahil may pinagdiskusyunan pa kami. Aheheh.

Grr lang. Nakakainis. Parang naging obligasyon ko na kasi sa bahay na saluhin lahat ng init ng ulo ng nanay ko. Tuwing na lang kasi mainit ulo niya sa akin kaagad siya pumupunta at isesermon lahat ng pwede niyang isermon sa akin, ultimo mga dapat niyang isermon sa iba niyang anak sa akin pa rin minsan sinesermon. Hayzz. Ang hirap talaga ng hindi sumasagot sa nagsesermon na nanay kahit most of the time hindi na naman talaga tama yung sinasabi niya. Hayzz lang. Tapos samahan mo pa ng mga kapatid na minsan na nga lang makakasalo ng galit ni Ma magagalit pa sa akin na parang obligasyon ko talaga na saluhin yung mga galit na yun. Hayzz. Ang dami ko pa sanang gustong sabihin, naghihimutok na naman yung dibdib ko kaya lang sa dami nun baka bukas ko pa ito ma-post. Grr kasi talaga. Lalo ko na naman tuloy gustong lumipat ng office na may malaking sweldo para makapag-move out na ako. Hayzz. Hayzz lang talaga.

Happy For A Happy Egoy

Although I made a promise that I won't blog about this, I just can't help being uberly happy for him. Heheh. Reading this, so far, probably would make him want to strangle me. I'm so happy for him, I really want to hug him every time I see him, although I hug him on a regular basis already, but recently the urge is different. Harhar.

The reason why I'm uber happy for him is because he found a reason to be "seriously" in love. Heheh. Even before he told me who it was, I'm already uber happy for him when he told me about wanting to settle in a serious relationship. For the Nth time, I'm really uber happy. ^__^

Grrr. That girl is really lucky. And I think, too, that he's lucky. Heheh. I never had a negative anything for him from the first day I met him. I actually like him because he's so effin funny, although some thinks he's annoying. Someone even said he's not boyfriend material, and I totally opposed it already even before I had heart to heart talks with him. And now that I knew how sensible this guy is despite others thinking that he's annoying and all that other shit, having to know him a little deeper than others dare made me love him. Love for a friend, that is. Nothing romantic, mind you! I believe he and AJ understand what I'm talking about. Harhar.

Now I know why AJ told me when we broke up that if ever we don't end up together, he would be happy to know I will be with that person. Those were the days when I'm so glad I have someone as effin funny as he is for a friend. No serious talks with him yet. Harhar. AJ mistook it as having a crush on him, that's why he told me that. Harhar. Well, I'm no hypocrite to say that if ever someone like him offers love to me and I'm single I won't accept it. Harhar.

Again, for the Nth time, I'm uber happy for him. You wouldn't really expect something like this from him especially if you're judging him already without even daring to know him a little deeper. I'm so glad I have him as a friend. I love him! Harhar! I really wish him happiness. ^__~

Are You Happy On A Shooting Star?

After exactly a year, two months and two days of not seeing one, as I regularly had for about 3 years in the past, today I saw a shooting star. Although I missed it badly in the past year, I never really put too much effort on seeing one, not until last March, when significant discussions and an unexpected event made me realize that I should do something about my longing for shooting stars.

A few months prior to that realization I had last March, I was scared of looking up to the night sky with the thought of seeing a shooting star. I thought it was so hopeless so I didn’t try that hard for fear of being dismayed. For three months now, I was able to shake off that fear. Every now and then, I look up to the sky at night waiting for one. Effort. Effort. I know I wouldn’t see one without any effort. So, in every moment that I had a chance, I would gaze up and wait for those now so rare seconds of it. So rare, for three months I didn’t see one.

But with all the efforts of waiting, something very sudden happened. It was totally unexpected; I was caught off guard. Someone saw what I had been waiting for in so long and bragged it in my face. I got crushed. Why to that person, and why not to me? It almost killed shooting star dreams, but I thought, I was the one who deserved it more than any one, I should get a hold of mine, so I continued waiting.

Earlier today, finally after more than a year, I saw again a shooting star. But what a big, big GRRR. The moment was far from remarkable. I didn’t enjoy it. Maybe it was because I was not in the right place at the right time, but still I think it’s not just the place and time. I have this feeling that I didn’t do my part well. It’s there. Silver dust striding to the jet black sky, yet being so overwhelmed by the fact that I haven’t seen it for more than a year spoiled it all, thus, making it so less gratifying. Grrr. Just grrr. I’ll just wait for the next shooting star. This time, I hope, I’ll be less overwhelmed and less tensed and bother by the thought that I might not enjoy it again.

So cheesy, huh? Effin sick metaphors. Damn. I totally suck at it, big time.

Update Galore

Dahil late ako sa make-up sked ko ngayong araw at dahil medyo wala pa ako sa mood magpakaburo ulit sa sandamakmak ng VB6 codes: Updates. Updates. Yehey! Dahil may mga updates na naman sa mga previous post ko, ayan, updates galore ako ngayon. Heheh.

My Not-So-Emo Boys
They're not emo anymore! I'm so happy for them. Harhar. Si boy loves girl okay na sila ni girlpren niya. Happy na siya dahil nakikitaan na niya ng pagbabago at ng effort si girlpren niya. Hindi na siya emo. Heheh. Si other emo boy naman, ayon. Basta happy siya ngayon. Ayaw ko ng magbigay ng details, basta happy siya ngayon. Super happy rin naman ako dun sa dahilan ng pagiging happy niya. Heheh. Love ko talaga yung dalawang yun. *hugs them both* Woot!

Thursday ng Friday at Thursday ng Saturday
As expected, hindi ako nakapanood. Hehehuhuhuh. Gusto ko talaga, lichi. Pero ganun talaga eh. Mahal na mahal ko pa naman ang Thursday. Hayzz.

Unconvincing Truth
Hindi ito tungkol kay ***** dahil hindi naman talaga siya yung totoong topic nung post na yun, hahah. Anyhoo. Wala pa rin akong magagawa kung may mga tao sa palagid na masayang nanguurat ng ibang tao sa kadahilanang wala silang magawa sa kani-kanilang mga sariling buhay at may mga issues sila sa sarili nila na feeling nila matatakpan ng panguurat nila sa mga ibang tao. Harhar. Nagpapakasaya sila at the expense of others. Wala rin lalo akong magagawa kung mahilig mambaliktad ng istorya yung mga taong yun just so others will think na sila yung kawawa, sila yung mabait, at kung ano pang ka-eklavuhan. Kung wala naman akong pakialam dun sa mga sasabihin nung mga pinagsasabihan niya ng mga sarili niyang version ng istorya, bahala na siya sa buhay niya. Basta ang mahalaga sa akin, alam ng mga taong mahalaga sa akin yung totoo, wala na akong pakialam sa iba.

Picanto Adventure, First And Last?
Sa huling update ni Patt sa akin ng kaniya sked sa school, yung 3 days niyang pasok na Monday, Wednesday at Friday ay mukang magiging two days a week na lang. Make-credit daw ata yung 3 units nung subject na binagsak niya last sem kya posibleng wala na siyang pasok ng Friday. Tapos kamusta naman yun na coding nga si Pica ng Wednesday hindi ba? Tapos ang pasok naman niya ng Monday 7:30AM to 6PM. Kaya lang naman ako nakakagising ngayong mga nakalipas na araw para makapasok ng 8AM na shift dito sa office ay dahil motivated ako ng 12 work hours kong dapat i-makeup. Kulang na motivation sa pagising ng maaga ang pagpapaalipin sa maarteng kapatid na ayaw mausukan ng jeep. Woot!

Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale....
Sige lang tuloy pa. Harhar. Dahil masyado akong natutuwa talaga dito sa linya na ito ilang weeks na, actually 1 month na nga ata eh, heheh, tatype ko siya ulit dito bago ako magupdate. "If I keep holding my breath all of these would fade away. If you keep driving we'll be lying in a wreck." So ayan na nga yun, ngayon ko na lang siya irerelate dun sa huling post ko. Kung gugustuhin ko naman kasi, sa dami ng problema namin ngayon ng Biik ko pwedeng itigil ko na lang hindi ba? Pero sabi nga ni Vinny, that's the easy way out -- the way for losers. Oo na, hindi naman ako plastik para sabihing hindi ako natatakot sa mga posibleng maganap, given the issue that we last had, pero dahil mahal ko ang Biik ko pinipili kong ipagpatuloy at magtiwala ulit sa kaniya. Yun na yun. Nagkasundo na rin kami tungkol dun sa transparency and openness thingy. Medyo nagkaroon lang ng misunderstanding sa pagtetext namin na iyun nung hapon. Although medyo naguguluhan pa rin ako ng konti, I'll let things be na lang. Sabi kasi niya kaya daw ayaw niya dahil alam niyang mahihirapan ako mag-adjust at ayaw daw niya ng ganun. Haayyzz. Basta, bahala na lang. Basta gagawin ko na lang kung ano sa tingin ko yung tama. Bahala na kung pano niya itatake yun. Haayyzzz. Eto na naman ako. Woot!

Inhale. Exhale. Hayzz.

If I keep holding my breath all of this would fade away. If you keep driving we'll be lying in a wreck.......
Signals Over The Air - Thursday

Sorry na, wala lang. Nabanggit ko lang naman yung linya na yan although hindi naman totally related yan sa post na to. Medyo lang. Harhar.

Hayzz. Konti na lang sana yung gagawin ko dun sa isang task ko pero nawala na naman ako sa mood magtrabaho, kaya eto, blog mode na naman.

Nakakalungkot lang isipin kasi na may mga bagay talaga na hindi pwedeng ipilit. Eto na naman ako, nasabi ko na nga ito sa isang post ko, pero ganun naman kasi talaga. Grrr. Grrr lang.

Ikaw na nga yung mageeffort, bukal naman sa loob mo, na magbigay ng buong buo pero nakakalungkot isipin na may mga ayaw pa ng ganun. Ang labo lang. Why would you settle for less if you can get more without effort sa panghihingi? Hayzz lang.

Pero naisip ko rin, siguro nga sobra na kasi yung binibigay ko. Oo na, nakalimutan ko kasi na masama nga rin pala ang sobra. Sorry na.

Pero kasi ganito lang naman yun. Hindi naman kasi ako umaasa na ibigay niya rin ng buo sa akin yung kaniya, pero hindi naman ako plastic para sabihin na wala akong ineexpect na kahit ano sa pagbibigay ko ng buo ng akin. Uber minimal lang naman yung ineexpect ko, simpleng appreciation lang naman or acknowledgment sa gusto kong ibigay. Kaya lang bukod sa hindi na nga tinanggap, pinagalitan pa ako.

Hayzz. Dahil hindi ako makatiis na hindi magbigay ng details, eto na.

Ganito kasi yun, I was giving AJ full visibilty sa lahat ng mga ginagawa ko lalo na sa things involving *****, si upismeyt na nasa post ko nung isang araw. Naisip ko kasi, wala namang issue sa mga kulitan namin ni *****, sa mga harutan namin, lambingan naming pang mag-utol, tsaka, oo na, sa pangungurot ko ng utong niya na ginagawa ko rin naman sa ibang ka-close kong lalaking GYC dito sa upis, tsaka lahat lahat pa ng mga ginagawa namin ni *****. Iniisip ko kasi na sabihin sa kanya lahat dahil ayaw ko ng may kahit anong hindi sinasabi sa kanya. I was after 100% openness and honesty sa kanya. Pero isang malaking GRRR. Dahil nae-emo siya, oo na, mali na nga yung ganun.

At dahil nga alam ko ng mali, nakaisip ako ng solusyon. Naisip ko, para mamaintain pa rin ang transparency ko sa kaniya sa lahat ng ginagawa ko, at dahil din mabigat sa utak ko na may something na alam kong dapat alam niya pero hindi ko dapat sabihin sa kadahilanang mae-emo siya, para wala na lang mga bagay na hindi sasabihin, kahit na ba sa rason na ang bagay na yun ay "BETTER LEFT UNSAID" naisip kong hindi ko na lang gagawin yung mga bagay na yun. Oo, iiwas na ako sa mga harutan at kulitan sa kuya ko. Para wala na rin kasi siyang ipage-emo pa, pero 100% open pa rin ako. Hayzz.

Adjust. Adjust. Ako na nga yung willing sa malaking paga-adjust pero ako na naman yung mali. Ang hirap naman, ang bigat na naman ng utak ko. Hindi ko kasi maintindihan kung bakit hindi na nga niya tinanggap yung offer ko nagalit pa siya sa akin. Sabi pa niya mas-ok na naman daw kasi yung hindi na lang sabihin sa isa't-isa yung mga bagay na ikae-emo ng isa. Asan ang honesty dun? Napagiisip na naman tuloy ako ng negative, na baka natatakot siya na kapag naging ganun ako sa kaniya magexpect ako na maging ganun din siya kaopen at natakot siya dahil marami pala siyang mga things na "better left unsaid." Hayzz. Pessimist mode. Balik na naman sa trust issues.

Hayzz. Ang labo lang talaga. Nalalabuan ako. Hindi ko talaga maintindihan. Hihinga na lang ako ng malalim. HAAAAAYYYYYZZZZ.

First Picanto Adventure

Matapos ang animo'y walang katapusang pagdadasal na sana payagan na akong magdrive ng magisa, FINALLY nangyari na rin sa wakas. Harhar. Ilang weeks na rin namang napaguusapan sa bahay na kapag pumasok na ulit si Patt, dadalin ko na araw-araw si Pica, since magkatabi lang yung office ko at school niya, sabay na daw kami papasok. Although super gusto ko naman talaga magdala na ng sasakyan dahil alam nating lahat ang benefits ng may dalang sariling sasakyan, umalma pa rin ako sa nanay ko dahil kamusta naman kasi na 30 pesos lang ang pamasahe ko araw-araw balikan na yun pero kamusta naman din ang presyo ng gasulina ngayon. Kahit na ba sabihin pa natin na halos uber lapit lang naman ng office ko sa bahay namin, at sa pagkaka-calculate DAW ng tatay ko eh more or less mga 1 liter a day lang lalaklakin ni Pica, hello?? Halos 55 pesos na po per liter ang gas, GRRR. At kamusta naman din na kahit kasabay ko ang kapatid kong napakasensitive sa usok ng mga jeep, nararamdaman kong bukod sa ako na nga ang nagsusupply ng load sa kanya buwan-buwan pati ata ngayon transpo cost nya papasok ng school. Harhar.

Anyhoo. Picanto adventure proper na tayo. Hahahah. Nung umaga ayos naman. Ay teka, ayos lang ba yung tatlong beses namatayan ng sasakayan? Hahahah. Pero kasi, if you had experienced driving my Pica, hindi ka na rin naman talaga magtataka kung ang isang katulad kong baguhan ay mamatayan talaga. Tsaka namatayan naman ako dun sa palabas ng subdivision sa may amin, ung uber tarik na pataas siya tapos ang daming dumadaan. Pati dun sa pataas din na intersection sa may Manggahan, Floodway. Hahahah. Bago pa nga ako, pagbigyan niyo na ako. Heheh. Tapos nung pagdating ko sa office, kung saan na lang nagshoot yung pwet ni Pica, dun na lang ako nagpark. Heheh. Buti na lang kasama rin namin yung isa kong tito na although hindi naman nagddrive, mahusay naman mag-guide sa mga tatanga-tanga magpark. Wahahah.

Nung pauwi na ako, eto ang masaya. Harhar. Kung gugustuhin ko, at ayon na rin sa utos ng nanay at tatay ko, sa Manggahan na lang ako dadaan pauwi para bukod sa masmaiksi na yung dadaanan ko, lesser gas na kailngan, wala pang traffic masyado dun. Pero dahil nga unang beses ko pa lang magdadrive ng TALAGANG MAGIS medyo na-scared ako kaya sinabay ko na sina Ykai, Ren at Vinny. Sa IPI ang daan namin dahil dun sila bababa.

Sa una, MUKANG okay naman. Wala naman gaanong problema, ayaw lang bumukas nung liching radio. Hahah. Yung liching clutch lang talaga yung panira. Sukat ba namang sa mismong IPI pa talaga siya ulit naginarte. Kamusta naman na namatayan ako sakto pagka-green ng traffic light sa intersection ng IPI at ako pa naman ang nasa unahan ng lahat ng sasakyan. Wahahah. Siyempre, panic galore na naman ako. Medyo natagalan tuloy ang pagstart ulit ni Pica. Tapos nakita na lang namin nila Vinny na palapit na yung Manong TMPO. Nasakto pa na nung malapit na siya umandar na kami ulit. KABOG. KABOG. Hahahah. Kamusta naman din kasi na pinapahinto niya ako eh nasa gitna na ako ng mismong intersection, kaya ayon, tinuloy ko lang. Wahahah. KINABAHAN AKO! Wahahah. Tapos kamusta naman din na uber traffic dun sa IPI kya no chance pa na makatakas dun kay Manong TMPO. Tapos good luck din dahil kailangan ko pang mag-pass sa lahat ng lane nung isang side ng intersection na iyon mula sa pagkaka-u-turn para lang makaliko papunta ng De Castro. Tapos, KABOG, KABOG, KABOG, si Manong TMPO naman, sukat ba namang parahin ako sa gitna ng uber nakakakabang pakikibaka ko sa lahat ng lane para makalusot papunta nga ng De Castro. Adik talaga yun. Pero kung hindi ko kasama sina Vinny nun, kung hindi baka naiyak na ako sa sobrang kaba. Hahah. Buti na lang kahit monstrous yung itsura ni Manong TMPO hinayaan na lang niya ako. Hahahah.

Tapos, dahil hindi ako makagilid dahil natakot ako sa mga bus dun sa IPI, ayon, sa Rosario ko na naibaba sila Ykai. Sorry na! Huhuhuh. Feeling ko pa sobrang kabadong kabado rin yung tatlong yun sa pagdadrive ko. Hahahah. Sabi pa ni Ren grabe daw makakapit si Ykai nun. Heheh.

Pagkababa nila matiwasay naman akong nakauwi. Kahit na uber kabado akong mamatayan na naman dun sa uber traffic na tulay bago lumiko ng De Castro. Weakness kasi talaga ng team-up namin ni Pica yung mga hanging na ganun, tapos from full stop aandar. Hahahah.

Hindi ko nga dala si Pica ngayon eh. Hindi ko alam kung fortunately ba, o unfortunately, pero tingin ko unfortunately naman siya, heheh, nakuha na kasi ni Patt yung final sked niya at Monday, Wednesday and Friday lang kami pwede magsabay. Coding si Pica ng Wed kaya ayon, Monday at Friday ko lang dala si Pica. Pero tingin ko papagamit pa rin naman sa akin ni Ma yun kapag trip ko. Heheh.

Iron Biik

Katatapos ko lang magayos na kabinet ko. Pagka-upo ko sa kulay red na sofa sa dressing room namin, habang sinasatisfy ko ang trichothillomania attack ko, naisip ko lang bigla yung movie na Iron Man. Ngayon ko lang naisip na halos pareho sa mga kaganapan dun yung mga kaganapan sa aming ng Biik ko nitong mga nakaraan araw. Oo, humanda ka na sa kakornihan at kamushyhan ng post na ito. Cheesy to, inuunahan na kita. Heheh.

Si Iron Man, hindi naman talaga siya pinlano ni Tony Stark na gawin, bigla lang niya naisip na gumawa dahil kailangan niya. Yung sa amin ni AJ, wala talaga sa plano, bigla na lang isang araw magkasama na kami palagi, magkausap at parang kami na hindi naman. Heheh.

Nung nagawa yung unang Iron Man, nagawa niya ng maayos yung intensyon ng pagkakagawa sa kanya. Hindi man pinlano yung sa amin ni AJ pero nagclick naman kasi kaya maganda ang naging takbo ng relationship namin, sa una.

Pagkatakas ni Tony Stark dun sa kuta ng mga kumidnap sa kanya, nasira si Iron Man dahil hindi pa masyado maganda ang pagkakagawa sa kanya. Ilang buwan din kami masaya ni AJ
pero nung unang beses na nagkaroon ng malaking problema na ako ang may kasalanan, nasira kaagad yung relasyon namin at nagresulta sa unang paghihiwalay. Although hindi naman talaga mukang naghiwalay, technically break pa rin. Heheh.

Binuo ulit ni Tony Stark si Iron Man pero this time, masmaganda na yung blueprint ni Iron Man at nagamit na niya rin ang mga high tech tools niya kaya maspulido na yung pagkakagawa. After two months naming break na hindi naman mukang break, ayon, kami na ulit ni Biik, at this time mas-ok na kesa dun sa unang part ng relationship namin dahil doon sa two months napagusapan ng maayos yung mga bagay na dati pa dapat napagusapan. At dahil dun, alam na namin kung paano masmaayos yung relasyon namin.

Tinest run ni Tony Stark ang bagong Iron Man niya. Sa kasarapan ng pagtetest run ni Tony Stark kay Iron Man lumipad xa ng mataas na mataas na mataas, at sa kataastaasan ng lipad ni Iron Man biglang nagshutdown at naubusan ng power yung artificial heart niya na pinagkukunan ng lakas ni Iron Man at nagsimula siyang mahulog mula sa super taas na lugar pababa. Sa kasagsagan ng masayang pagsasama namin ni Biik simula ng nagbalikan kami, bigla na lang nagkaroon ng isang malaking problema na hindi ko na masyadong bibigyan ng detalye pa dito. Basta imaginine niyo na lang, super ganda na ng tingin ko sa relasyon namin, alam kong masaya na talaga kami, sukdulan din ang tiwala ko sa kanya at sukdulan din ang honesty na binigay ko sa kaniya, tapos bigla na lang nagkaroon ng malaking problema na sobrang nakakalungkot talaga, nayanig ng husto ang relasyon namin.

Nung malapit ng sumadsad sa lupa si Iron Man mula sa kaniyang pagkakabagsak ng napakataas, parang hopeless na talaga pero biglang bumalik ang power ng artificial heart niya at nakalipad na siya ng maayos, sakto lang para hindi bumagsak sa lupa at magkalasog-lasog o kung ano pa mang disaster. Sobrang tindi nung dumaang problema sa amin ni Biik nung nakaraan, akala ko talaga hindi ko makakayanan. Akala ko wala ng pagasa, pero ang love nga naman. Heheheh.

Pagkatapos ng insidenteng iyon, bumalik si Tony Stark sa lab niya at dahil alam na niya kung ano ang kakayahan ni Iron Man nalaman na rin niya kung ano ang mga dapat ayusin at palitan kay Iron Man para gawin itong masmatibay at masmalakas, kaya nung sumunod na sumabak sa labanang matindi si Iron Man, malakas na siya. Ngayon alam na naming ng Biik kung ano ang mga naging mali, at dahil dun alam na namin kung ano ang dapat iwasan, ano ang dapat gawin at paano magmamaintain. Sana nga lang talaga mamaintain para sa susunod na magkaroon na naman ng problema, although sana hindi na magkaron pero mabuti na talaga yung handa, eh masmadali na naming malalagpasan dahil masmatibay na kami, more than ever! Heheh..

Ano bang magagawa niyo kung nakikita ko yung sarili ko kay Tony Stark at yung relasyon naman namin ng Biik si Iron Man? Haayzzz.. Ang hirap talaga ng magiisang taon na 25 days from now, heheh. Nagiging korni at cheesy yung mga post ko. Hahahah. I love you, Biik! ^____^

Unconvincing Truth?

You can't force people to believe the truth, most especially if they just don't wanna believe it. Hayzz. Ganun talaga eh, wala naman talaga tayong magagawa sa mga sariling utak ng mga tao sa paligid natin kung hindi intindihin na lang sila, meron lang talagang mga taong sarado at matigas ang makikitid na utak. Pero hindi rin naman lahat sa kanila nakakainis, yung iba lang. Yung iba naman kasi, may rason naman at tamang pinaghuhugutan kaya mahirap mapaniwala sa katotohanan.

Example ng hindi nakakainis, eto. Hindi ko na lang sasabihin yung pangalan nung isa kasi baka kahit wala namang dapat ikapraning yung girl friend nya, mapraning pa rin. Heheh. Nung isang gabi, sa tapat ng office namin, habang hinihintay namin ni ***** yung mga ibang kasama namin uuwi nakita kami nila Miss Kat at Sir Mike habang nasa parking lot sila at hinihintay lumabas ang ibang seniors. Tulad ng dati, inasar na namin kami ni Miss Kat. Heheh. May date na naman daw kami ni *****, tapos nung sinabi naming wala ang sagot ni Miss Kat sa amin, "Kaya kayo naiissue eh, lagi kayong magkasama." Heheh. Isa si Miss Kat sa mga love kong seniors sa office namin, tanggap ko yung mga biro niyang ganun sa amin ni *****. Heheh. Hindi naman ako nainis o kung ano pa man dahil dun sa nangyari na yun sa parking lot, sanay na rin naman ako, pero naisip ko lang, hindi talaga lahat ng bagay madaling ipapaniwala sa ibang tao.

Alam naming pareho ni ***** na wala naman talagang dapat i-issue sa aming dalawa. Sa totoo lang, sanay na rin naman talaga kami na iniisip ng mga ibang tao sa office na merong something sa aming dalawa. Oo, meron nga, pero hindi tulad ng iniisip nila. Meron kaming magandang relasyon bilang magkuya. Mahirap paniwalaan para sa iba na ang isang babae at lalaki na super close sa isa't isa ay walang romantic something, pero wala naman talaga yung sa amin. Nakakatuwa pa nga isipin, na kahit kadalasan ang bonding naming dalawa ay labasan ng emoness tungkol sa kanya-kanya naming karelasyon, recently lang eh gumaganda na yung takbo ng kanya-kanya naming relationships. Pareho na rin kami ng lagay ngayon at ng favorite line, "eh, mahal ko, eh." Hahahah. Sabi nga niya recently lang habang nagkekwentuhan kami tungkol sa problema ko, "magkuya nga tayo." Hahahah.

Actually, hindi ko naman talaga ako nagpost ng ganito ngayon para mag-clear out ng mga issue tungkol sa amin. Naisip ko lang na magandang example kasi iyon para dun sa naisip kong topic para sa post na ito na katotohanang mahirap ipilit sa iba na paniwalaan. Tsaka hindi lang din naman kasi ung incident sa parking lot last Friday yung nagtrigger sa akin na magsulat ngayon ng tungkol sa pagpapaniwala sa mga tao ng katotohanan. Meron pa.

Nung mga nakaraang araw kasi meron isang tao na may isang bagay na pinagpipilitan. Paulit-ulit niya sinasabi ang isang bagay. Nakakatawa dahil ang layo naman sa katotohanan ng mga sinasabi niya tungkol sa akin, at produkto lang ng pag-aassume niyang ewan pero kung makapagsalita siya parang alam na alam niya, pero hindi naman talaga. Ayaw ko na rin mageffort na sabihin pa sa kaniya na mali yung sinasabi niyang yung tungkol sa akin, mukang wala namang pagasang maniwala yun at baka kung ano na namang maisip niyang panggugulo. Hayzz. Ayaw ko na lang magbigay ng iba pang details. Heheh. Ang mahalaga, alam ko at nung isa pang taong involve na hindi naman talaga tama yung sinasabi nung taong yun, bahala na siya basta kami masaya na kami ulit. Heheh.

Thursday Update

Oh well. As expected. Thursday plans where all a drawing. Confirmation came a few minutes after I had posted the previous blog entry. Harhar. AJ said he was given a new schedule for Friday and his shift is now 8PM of Friday until 5AM of Saturday. He said it was both bad and good news. He said, bad because we won't be seeing Thursday on Friday, but good because it means we'll be going to Cam Sur to watch them. Sounds convincing, huh? But actually, that's just bad and worst news. Heheh.

Going to Cam Sur is, like, only a 90/10 chance in favor of the neg. How the hell would we convince my mom to let us come to Cam Sur in such short notice? And knowing that the easier way to see Thursday live, which is to attend the Makati leg of their tour, is confirmed impossible, that's a big, big GRRR.

I wish AJ never told me about Thursday going to Manila. I think there's no way for me to know about it, anyway. Harhar. It would be a little less mournful for me to know that they came and I wasn't able to see them because I learned about it late and there were really no means for me to go, than know in advance that they're coming and I wasn't able to catch them. Huhuhuh. Anyhoo. I think not expecting too much helped, too, heheh, just like in any other things. Harhar. But still GRRR. I really wanted to see them. Harhar.

I'll Watch Thursday in Cam Sur!!! Drawing?

(May 29, 2008 1:39PM)

Plans, plans, plans. Grrr. I had a long list of outings a few months ago, all were stuck at the drawing board already faded and reduced to a blank canvas except for two; the one with Pampers in Antipolo, and the upcoming company outing. Harhar.

Anyways. I’m so effin excited because one of my most loved foreign bands, Thursday, are coming to play here in the Philippines tomorrow in Makati and in Camarines Sur the next day. Grrr. They’ll be playing at Camarines Watersports Complex, where that cable skiing thingy is. Harhar. Grrr. I really wanna see them play live and see their yummyness in flesh. Hahahah. Although tickets are only priced at 1000, I had not set my mind that I’m a hundred percent sure that I’ll get to see them because, grrr, you know how my mom can ruin everything in a snap of her finger, plus the fact that AJ is now working as a callboy in Convergys. I don’t wanna be disappointed again. Harhar.

A few days back, AJ told me that I can ask my mom permission already because he’s sure that his schedule for that day will allow us to watch Thursday on Friday. But I told him that he should check on the tickets first. And now that he had already confirmed that tickets are still available, yehey! Yehey! The only thing to worry about now is my mom.. Grrr..

AJ and I were drawing last night about watching Thursday at the Kaogma Festival in Camarines Sur. I made it into a beautiful painting earlier today. Harhar. I checked out room rates of Camarines Watersports Complex and checked out bus fare and trip schedule to Camarines. Compute, compute, compute. If we will watch Thursday there, we would spend roughly about 7000 pesos for the two of us already. So that’s like 3,500 each. Harhar. That included 2 nights at CWS already. But now, just now, I figured we would only be staying there for one night. If we would take the 8PM trip from Cubao to Naga tomorrow, we’ll be in Naga early in the morning. Harhar. So maybe we’ll just be spending more or less 5000 pesos only, heheh.

Anyhoo. Enough of this already. That’s just DRAWINGS. Most probably we’ll be watching Thursday this Friday in Makati. Hindi na ako aasa sa Cam Sur! Harhar. Basta, all I want is to see Thursday. Harhar.

Open Letter to Them All

I just hope this would be the last that there would be for this chapter of all of our lives.

To Her

You know, I really pity you for having to live a life like that. You try so hard not to let people know how your life is really full of bitterness by exerting too much effort on making people think that you’re too confident and too strong. By overdoing it, hindi mo alam masnahahalata tuloy na puno talaga ng bitterness yung buhay mo at pinipilit mo lang takpan. So sad. Naaawa ako sayo dahil nagsesettle ka na sa ganyang klaseng buhay. You’re still young. You can still learn how to take life simply and without fear of being hurt again, or whatever bad things that have happened to you in the past that might have scarred you. Or maybe you fear that people might think you are weak. Being weak some times is only human. Breathe, girl. You don’t wanna die without feeling the real essence of living. You may be enjoying life now with how you’re currently living it, but think. At the end of the day, is there anything or someone left with you? You don’t wanna be alone, do you?

To Him

You know I was hurt. The lies and all, I was really hurt. But admitting your mistakes means a lot to me. I know it took a lot from you to confess everything, especially that ultimate mistake that you did. Alam ko ang daming nagsasabi na sana hindi mo na lang inamin para wala ng gulo, but you still chose to tell me the truth. I give you credit for your courage and for that I knew you still care for the relationship. I knew what I had to do is to forgive, and that’s what I did despite being so much hurt, because my love for you is enough to make me believe that there is still hope in fixing everything. I just wish you really are sincere when you said you are really sorry for all the mistakes that you had and when you promise, too, that you will never make me feel this pain ever again. I don’t wanna be disappointed and so depressed like this again in the future, that is why I will not expect anymore from you. Just do what you have to do. You know how difficult it is for me to give you another chance. I wish you will treasure it this time.

To My Friends

A thousand thank you’s to all of you who stood by me for the past few days that I was struggling to keep my self together. I know it would be difficult for most of you to understand why I decided to give him another chance. I would like to borrow Vinny’s line for this. “Mahal ko kasi, eh.” Sorry na, guys. I know in time you’ll see that my decision was right, but if not… Papayag naman ako magpabatok, magpasampal, lahat na… I love you guys. Thanks again.

To His So-called “Friends” At the Office

Honestly, I really don’t like most of your ways and stuff. Most especially, dahil hinahayaan niyo lang na gumawa ng maling desisyon yung mga tinatawag niyong kaibigan. When you get to play, know who are the people na isasali niyo. Tsaka, alam niyong may girlfriend yung tao, hinahayaan niyo lang, alam niyo na ngang mali na yung mga nagiging desisyon. Or baka naman mga self-proclaimed bad influences na kayo kaya ganun. I know everything is still a choice of an individual, but if you want to ruin your lives, don’t influence others to do the same. I want you to know that this is the impression that you had given me, just prove me wrong if I am. And I certainly hope you will.

Thanks to You, I Really Am A Green-Eyed Monster

I just can't believe that effin maid talks as if the trust issues AJ and I are having has nothing to do with her. Grrr. And she even had the guts to say she's sick of my child play? WTF? So I'm the one who's bugging her? I know I may be labeled cold hearted or whatever, but I'm not afraid of losing AJ AGAIN, as opposed to what she says is the reason why I am putting up with her. Grrr. And I'm not saying this just because I'm enraged again, but I really do, because I know I don't have to be a slut just to be with someone. And I really pity AJ for having to lose me again just because of someone who says she's just over confident when what she really is is a slutty bitch whose existence will never be noticed if she didn't act like one. Grrr.

My Blogspot's Got A New Look, Harhar

Nyahahah. I wanted a new look for my Blogspot account for ages already, but I just can’t find the right layout anywhere in the world wide web. Yeah, yeah. I know I should’ve just made myself one but, darn it, you know how lazy I am to do so. And yet another yeah, yeah. I know this current layout looks so effin kikay for me, but so what? Harhar! I like it. Even though it doesn't even suit my blog title, I still llike it. Harhar! Anyhoo. If miracles happen again and sloth rests somewhere else than me I would be editing this template’s images to make it a little less kikay. Heheh. Actually, I kinda feel like doing it now, but I haven’t eaten dinner yet and it’s already 8 PM. I hope sloth won’t find its way back to me after I eat my dinner. Harhar.

Anyhoo. I finally learned how to change the time and date that will appear on the entry posted here at Blogspot. Grrr. I think later I would edit the dates of the blog entries I copy-pasted here from my blogs.rakista account. Grrr. I really wish posting ib Blogspot gets unblocked at the office. Grrr.

Finally, Harhar

A few days back, my mom is reminding me again of taking back home the Philips SBC HP250 Headphones I’m currently using in the office. It was my dad’s, actually, but he just lets cobwebs and dusts grow empires on it. My mom said I should return it to my dad already because it annoys her when my dad is watching tely late at night and she can’t sleep. Every time she reminds me of it, I kept saying, “Yes, yes, I will,” but deep inside I’m thinking, “You just want your empire of cobwebs and dust back.” I didn’t tell her about the headphones everyone in the office gets whenever they are regularized. I kept telling her I’ll bring the old Philips back to where it slumbers unused when I bought a new one already.

I had been regularized just last week, the day after my birthday, but my sulking about my headset was on for more than a month already. That’s because my batch mates from the other department received theirs so, so early and I didn’t. But a few days after I became regular, our product manager told me that the headphones that were in her cube was mine, but we have to wait for our big boss to give it to me. I wish she hadn’t told me that because, a few days since then, knowing that the much awaited headset is just there yet not in your hands isn’t a happy thought. Harhar. Anyhoo. I got it already but I'm still not using it currently. It's just sitting on my cube, still boxed. Harhar. Having my SBC HP250 upgraded to SBC HN110, I’m so happy. It kinda lessened the gloomy mood I had because of AJ and his maid slut, but it’s still not enough for me to feel like talking to him yet. It just lessened my want to burn the slut alive. Now I want her burned dead. Harhar.

The Effin Bisayang Maid Who Has a "Fuck Me, PLEASE, I Beg You" Placard

I was supposed to have lunch out of the office today with AJ as originally planned days ago, but something grrr came up and now it won’t happen. Actually, I was expecting it to still push through although I’m not talking to AJ since yesterday because of that grrr thing because I thought AJ would think that it might be a good way to make up for what he did that made me really angry again. I texted him earlier to ask if we will still have lunch today, because if not, I would cancel the food I had ordered and I only got until around 10:30 to do so. That was around 10:10 when I texted him, he replied at 10:26 saying he wasn’t expecting it to still push through that’s why he woke up later than he should if he would still come. Grrr. Totally disappointing. It just made me doesn’t wanna text him even more.

About that grrr thing, that effin slut who totally looks like a bisayang maid who he flirts with in the office got into my nerves again yesterday. What made my blood boil is the fact that a few nights ago, AJ said he has stopped talking to her already and, the juiciest part, he said he is not keeping any more secrets from me no matter how small they are, yet the alibi he used on me yesterday was telling me he thought that that small info about the effin maid slut sending him a picture of a man’s abs following a message, “as promised.. :P” is better kept secret. No more secrets, huh?

But, anyhoo, being enraged again by the effin maid who has a “fuck me, PLEASE, I beg you” placard gave me my much awaited, long overdue, idea for a new Corel project. You can check it out at the link below but I would be improving it hopefully later today and upload it at my real deviantart account, but I think by the time you had read this, it might be updated already is posted where it should be.

Dead Effin Bisayang Maid Slut

Main DeviantArt Account

My Emo Boys

I dunno why but some of my friends are sharing their emo stories with me all of a sudden. Is it because of my new emo-kid look, as these two guys always say, that attracts emoness? Harhar. Ooops! That’s totally a giveaway clue there. Anyhoo. I know I am not at all supposed to share what they shared with me to anyone, but I just can’t help it. I just feel the need to let it out, but because I shouldn’t tell anyone from the office about it, I’ll just write it here. Harhar. That’s just worst. And yeah, I know I’m so evil, continuing. Har har. Well, I’ll just TRY not to give too much detail. Grr.

Boy Loves Girl

Lately, he’s always emo because of his girl friend’s inconsistent thoughts. He would always tell me how tired he is for complying with everything his girl wants but then, when he does, he still gets rants. And those rants were suggesting him to do again what he was asked not to do. And what’s worst, she’s doing things she should know would lead to those things she doesn’t want, yet all the blame is still given to him. Grrr. I know how much he loves her, and I see all his efforts just to make their relationship work despite of the fact that he’s already at the point of his life were he’s pulling everything together while his girl friend is at the peak of exploring, enjoying and learning. I don’t have anything against her. I know she’s still young and there are still things she has to learn. With all the patience he had given, and is still giving, I just think he deserves a little more attention and more trust. For two months, he has given way too much than other guys have given within years and does not need to be further tested.

I told AJ about his emoness, including the recent issue he shared with me about trust and exes. AJ said, “I know how he feels, really, I’ve been there. Hahaha. Maybe he shouldn’t be asking you for advice, it would be more appropriate for him to talk to me.” Harhar. Yeah, right. I think so, too. I really do. Har har. If you, boy, happens to read this, just ask me for AJ’s number. LOL!

Girl Loves Boy to Boyfriend

He’s one of the few people who wanted me to work out my relationship with AJ during our “Dark Ages,” as AJ terms it. That is why, although he doesn’t look like someone who would share emoness, I was not surprised when he all of a sudden opened up about his girl. They have something for more than a year now and about a month ago, she asked him why aren’t they still in a commitment. A real commitment, that is. I know nothing about her except her name, her school, what she looks like, and how she is related to him. For the few months that I have been friends with him, I know he’s the type who you cannot expect any commitment from. He just loves to mingle. I was kinda expecting that scenario already, and I can say I had somewhat predicted how he would react to it. He said he agreed on being in a real relationship although his mind was still cloudy about it but he really prefers not to be because he doesn’t want to be restrained from doing what he does. After what happened, although he didn’t say why, he said they started being cold to each other, and earlier today he told me that they broke up already. I think that’s how it should be for them. She really should not expect much from him, especially on matters regarding commitment. She just won't get anything.

Blogspot. Evil Plan. Birthday. Effin Biatch!

Three weeks’ worth of blogging all packed in just one post. Harhar.

Bye, Bye, Blogspot

Blogspot is now blocked AGAIN in the office. Well, we can read entries but you can’t sign in to post a new one. Grrr. There were some issues about our seniors’ blogging which led to blocking the site again for posting. So, yeah, I’m back at blogging at blogs.rakista.com/parapampam and copy-pasting entries to my friendster and Blogspot accounts when the miracle of patience in waiting happens to me when I’m at home. Grrr. I never really felt how slow my laptop is until my office PC got upgraded and got blessed with a Quad Core processor. I’m the only Junior Developer in the office with a Quad Core machine, so keewwl.

From Tagaytay Evil Plan to AJ’s Very First EK Experience

Since Monday last week, Ykai, Ceejhay and I were joyously planning for the long overdue “evil plan” that we thought of pulling off at last week’s Thursday, which is a holiday. In our minds, we all thought, “this is it!” but then, on the night before the plans execution, BOOM! Problems came up and then, yeah, you might have guessed it already. Evil planned postponed again indefinitely. Then I told AJ that we should just visit Enchanted Kingdom instead. I was just kidding, but AJ became so enthusiastic about what I said because he said he’s never been there so, I thought, what the heck? It’s been so long since I last went there and I want to go there again. Harhar. We took the shuttle in Ayala to Enchanted, which is already included in the Pasyal Pinoy Package worth 765Php, which includes roundtrip shuttle passes from Ayala to EK and back, plus the EK Day Pass. Damn, I wanna go karting and ATV-ing again. Harhar. The weather was so, so great. Not sunny, yet it’s not raining, just right. Harhar. What a great pre-birthday celebration for me, heheh. Although the fireworks were really lame, or maybe I'm just used to seeing that kind of fireworks display every now and then at our house's rooftop, and the 2-hour, or more, of fireworks display every New Year's Eve.

I’m 21, Yehey!

Yup, I’m now at the more legal age than 18, and yeah, I’m still my mom’s baby. Grrr. Nothing’s changed since grade school, I’m still not allowed to drink, and still not allowed to be out late, still not allowed to go to gigs and finish it, GRRRR! Well, I guess moving out will still, and always be, my only SALVATION. Anyways, ugly thoughts behind, my birthday was great. Being also the anniversary of Paw’s breadknife incident, it is also the anniversary of my first date with AJ. Woot! Harhar. So I asked permission in the office to work half day on my birthday, having used that family affair excuse, I got to watch Iron Man with AJ in the morning. He has work at 3PM and I, too, at 2PM, that is why we watched the earliest show time. Harhar. I bought 3 1.3 liters of different flavored ice creams at the office, because I can’t escape tradition. Aheheh. GYC gave me a really cute bean-stuffed black-eyed dog from It’s Cool and a bendable doll which, they say, looks like me. Harhar.

The Three Weeks’ Highlight

My patience was put to test starting on the first of these three weeks, when I saw something that really got me holding myself back from smashing whatever’s smashable. Grrr. I really hate effin bitches that would do anything it takes just to get someone to fuck them. I don’t wanna elaborate on this much because I’m currently struggling to keep myself from being enraged again. Just the thought of that bitch makes me wanna hit something. Grr. I wish I could put into writing all the thoughts running in my head right now about that bitch and how she caused trust issues I now had with AJ. Grrr. Just grrr.

"Dove Slaughter"

Just in case you didn't notice, I added a Greenpeace banner on the left of my blog's page in support of their campaign against Dove's evil plans on the rain forests of Indonesia. It won't hurt if you'll click the banner and learn about the "Dove Slaughter" campaign of Greenpeace. I had already signed the open letter, I hope you do, too. Please have the heart.

And to those who use Dove products, like AJ ^__^, please, please, think about these:

1. Indonesia is losing its forest faster then anywhere else on Earth, driving species like orang-utans to extinction.
2. Due to the destruction of rainforests and peatlands, Indonesia is currently the 3rd biggest greenhouse gas polluter in the world (behind only USA and China). And palm oil plantations are causing much of the deforestation.
3. Unilever is one of the world's biggest users of Indonesian palm oil for many of its products. About half of Unilever's palm oil supply comes from Indonesia. As recently as 2005, Unilever purchased 1 in every 20 tonnes of palm oil produced in the country.
4. Indonesian palm oil is used in products like Dove, Knorr, Walls, Ola, Persil, Omo, Surf, Flora and Becel.
5. Demand for palm oil is forecast to grow quickly. According to the UN 98 percent of Indonesia's lowland forest will be destroyed by 2022 if trends continue.
6. Unilever has failed to take any effective action to ensure its palm oil is sourced from sustainable sources. It also heads the Round Table on Sustainable Palm Oil (RSPO) which has overseen the situation continue to get worse.
7. Unilever, as a major buyer of palm oil, and leader of the RSPO, is in a unique position to help save Indonesia's rainforests.
8. At the moment the RSPO is little more than a greenwashing operation because RSPO members continue to be involved in the destruction of Indonesia's rainforests
9. Greenpeace investigations show that it is Unilever's own palm oil traders and producers (themselves RSPO members) who are leading 'aggressive expansion' of the sector that results in the devastation of the last remaining orang-utan rainforest and peatland habitat in Borneo.

New Do, Same 'Ol Gayness

I usually get my haircut every 3 months or every end of a Mapua term, and that kinda continued on after grad. My last one was around the 3^rd week of January, so that’s already three months. Harhar.

Now here’s what happened yesterday. The original plan was to get my hair cut during the lunch break of Tuesday. I even told Ceejhay already a few minutes before the lunch break that I would not join them for lunch because I’ll get my hair done. But sloth overcame me again and it did not happen, and if it did I wouldn’t be in this picture. The complete GYC class picture, minus Vinny who took it. Harhar.

So the plan was moved to yesterday’s lunch break. Ceejhay said she would knock me out if it won’t push through, so harsh of an Amazonian, so I got scared, harhar. And besides, I would really be out for lunch because I’ll be meeting AJ. So around 11:30 AM I ate half of my packed lunch and then went to Vinny’s cube to tell him I’ll be out to get my hair cut. And then, being the concerned big bro he is (wooot!), he said he wouldn’t want me to look uber-emo and everything and halted me from leaving just to find me pictures of Japanese bands with hair he wanted me to have. He said he doesn’t want emo hair on me, but he gave me pictures of J-Rock people with fashion core hair which is the origin of scene hair, and scene hair is sooo emo hair. And by the way, I was really planning to get scene hair in purple highlights. Vinny said he’s with me in getting purple highlights although Ykai and Ceejhay didn’t want me to, harhar. Grrr. I really want purple highlights.

So, there. I left the office at approximately 12:10 already and Tiendesittas is like 10 minutes away. That’s 10 minutes plus the time it takes to walk from Gurango to where the jeeps are, plus the time I have to walk from IPI to SM Hypermart. So I decided to take a cab, but for some effin reason, there wasn’t any. So I wasted about 5 minutes already, under scorging heat, on waiting for a cab before I finally managed to just ride the jeep and walk from IPI to Hypermart. Grrr.

In a total dugyot-look, I arrived Bench Fix at around 12:30 already. Haircut was done at around 12:45 and then……

I told the stylist that I want purple highlights and that I got a Bench receipt and want to avail of the 50% discount on L’Oreal hair coloring thingies. To my surprise, he gave me that thingy where you would choose the color you want for your hair. Then I told him again that I want purple highlights. He answered, “Ay, FURFOL. Walang FURFOL sa L’Oreal eh. Dito sa isa meron pero hindi siya 50% off pero masmura naman ‘to.” OKAAYY. Hahahah.

When I saw the only FURFOL hair dyes they got, I was kinda dismayed. It was not as bright as the FURFOL I wanted but then I thought, this is better so as not to make my mom so effin angry. Harhar. So, there. Now the effin gayness it resulted to.

Oh, well. It wasn’t really so bad. But now my officemates call me emo. Harhar. After 3 months I would get the real FURFOL highlights I wanted. Grrr.

1 Down, 3 To Go

SATURDAY

One outing down, 3 to go. Harhar. I almost removed that outing with Pampers from the outing queue without even going there. My mom didn't give me permission until the morning of the outing, and was really angry at me on the night before. Then she came up with an agreement that I can join the outing but not overnight, leave at around 9PM and that I should come with them to Tagaytay the following day. OKAY. Makakapalag ba naman ako kay bossing? Hayzz.

Loreland was okay, as opposed to what I originally thought. I thought Loreland is a resort with all the colorful rocks I really, really effin hate. Those rocks or other thingies made from cement, like log-looking tables and benches colored in pink, yellow, blue, and other unearthly colors. I just hate those. The crowd was also a little less than I expected. Although pool water is a little hazy, Loreland is generally okay. And by the way, it was not in Taytay, it was in Antipolo. Stupid me. Harhar.

Entrance is reasonable at 160Php, but not for me and AJ. Grrr. If you’ll only stay there from our arrival time of 6PM to my promised 9PM, plus the 120Php share each for that effin 800+Php hut, plus my food share which is 66Php for 2 kilos of rice. So that’s about a hundred bucks per hour.

SUNDAY

Finally, my mom was able to drag me to her recently acquired abode. I know newly acquired properties are to brag for especially if it’s a new house but I don’t know why my mom is, like, overdoing excitement. Harhar. That house was nice. I like the small pool with that mosaic sun in the middle and the Jacuzzi, but they still need to be fixed and is still unusable. The place was so breezy, but the sun is still scourging, although not as scourging as the Manila sun. But if we didn’t went to ukay-ukay after we had lunch after our early morning mass, I would have anything to do there. For my whole stay there, I was just washing clothes Patt and I bought from the ukay-ukay. If not, I would have grown roots and my eyes had turned all white. And speaking of ukay-ukay, I scored a really nice Puma jacket. So so so so keeewwwl! That’s the only thing I loved yesterday. Harhar.

Wasted Earliness, Grrr

All my efforts on waking up early to be in the office for the 7AM shift just so I can be out at 4PM were all put to waste. I shouldn't have exerted effort. I should have trusted my instinct that this is what will happen. It is already 4:48 PM and I’m still at the office waiting for AJ who is still in a bus from Intramuros. And on his last update, he is still in Sta. Mesa. Hayzz. I just hope he gets here before 6 PM or else I’ll be really upset already, I won’t feel like talking to him again for a few minutes. I know it’s PARTIALLY not his fault because Ms. Carreon checked their thesis really late, but he could have just rode the LRT 2 to Cubao and then jeep from there rather than taking a bus from Intramuros to IPI in heavy traffic. He could have been here already. Grr.

I'm A Yellow Corel Alien, So What?

I'm so effin early for work, harhar. It's only 10:16 AM and I had done minutes of petix and finished watching The Bee Movie. If all goes well today, I can make landeeh with AJ as early as 4 PM today. I’m so happy. ^___^

Photoshop day again? Grrr. I really am so impatient on shifting from what I am used to into something new, like my so wished for transition from using Corel Photo-paint to the oh-so-loved and so effin famous Adobe Photoshop. I always get comments saying I can “photoshop” and when I tell people I don’t effin know a thing in Photoshop their eyes widen like I suddenly turn into a big wobbly yellow alien, especially when I tell them I use Corel on my shits. Adobe Photoshop has been a real deal to people that if you’re good at it people would so look up to you like a god or something. Maybe I long for doing the transition from Corel to Adobe because during the time that I was looking for a job, I sometimes look into job posting related to graphic design. Wala lang, bakit ba? Harhar. And to what I noticed, number one requirement is knowledge in Adobe Photoshop. It was very rare to see Corel in the requirements list. Grr.

I know, and am not ashamed to admit, that I’m not at all any good at graphic design but who knows, maybe one day my wind shifts into that direction. Harhar. I wanna learn Adobe Photoshop just so I know its workaround and won’t look like an ignorant or whatever, but I still won’t give up on using Corel Photo-Paint. So, yeah, when I don’t feel sloth when I’m home I would try to look for my Corel installation CD and copy it here in my office machine. Day count from that day starts today. Hmmm. Maybe a week count would work much better. Harhar.

Oatmeal. Petix. Photoshop.

I missed three days dose of my oatmeal, and now I’m finally looking forward again to easy pooping. My Yakisoba addiction is now over and now I’m addicted to instant oatmeal in coffee, instead of hot water. DROOOOL. Oh, wait. I’m currently eating coffee oatmeal. Harhar.

Another petix day at the office, grrr. I’m getting paid for growing bum fats in my tummy in front of this monitor for hours doing nothing work-related. Harhar. I’m a little early today than my usual arrival in the office which is a few minutes after 10 AM, and by a few minutes I mean less than 10. And here in the office, arriving at 10:01 already equals a minus 60 in my weekly pay slip, and my weekly pay slip usually has around -180 under time pay. Harhar.

Finally, I fought sloth in trying to teach myself the basics of Adobe Photoshop. What a great miracle it really is for me to actually be reading tutorials. Harhar. Basic of all the tutorial basics, how pity. Hahahah. Let’s see how this miracle would turn out. Let’s see in a few days if I still see myself installing Corel Photo-Paint in my machine, as originally planned before I accidentally learned that Willy has an Adobe Photoshop CS2 installer in his machine. Now enough blogging, Photoshop mode again….. ^__^

Summer = Wallet Dehydration: I Need MONEEEY!

April's here and everybody knows what it means. It's effin summer already. The hot sun is so scourging and walking from Monarch to Topy's is like a 3-minute trip to hell everyday. So, what more for my 20-minute tricycle-please-please-come moments in front of our gate at the very beginning of the day every single weekday? Grrrr. Nasa tapat pa lang ako ng bahay dugyot na ako kaagad, shitfuck.

And adding to that shit load of effin grrness, SUMMER=SWIMMING! Four different outings are scheduled for me this April to May. Grrrr.. I effin need lots and lots of money.

First in the queue is the Pampers get together swimming in Taytay. On the last update I was told, it will be on April 12 somewhere in Taytay. Patty said we just need to prepare 150 pesos for the entrance and then more money for food. Cheap entrance on a summer Saturday in Taytay, God knows how many people will be peeing with you in the pool. Harhar. =)

Second on the queue, PUERTO GALERA on the first week of May with James, Brent, and...... I don't know who else, yet. Hahah.. They were talking about this package that would make our wallets bleed more or less, I guess, around 7,000 pesos all-in-all. That much because we were so so many, harhar. =) And because of it, I thought of a plan.

The supposed last outing queued for me this summer is the evil plan Ren and Ykai plotted for the GYC couples. And by GYC couples, that only include Ren-Ykai, Vinny-Angel, Pam-AJ and the official-yet-technically-not-yet-couple Ceejhay-Ivan. There was supposed to be an outing on the third weekend of May but for so many reasons, primarily financial issues, harhar, it was cancelled. Then now Ykai and Ren had plans on going to Galera with Ren’s friends and was asking me and Vinny to come with them, but Vinny now has plans on going to Baguio with Angel, and I and AJ are also going to Galera with James and Brent; again, financial issues. Harhar. Then I thought of just merging Ren and Ykai’s Galera escape with James and Brent’s. Besides, it will be favorable to both parties, well, in my opinion, because going to Galera in a big group means less wallet bleeding for each and every one of us. So I told Ren about my plans, we discussed it already with his friend and now all that’s left to do is wait for James and Brent’s reply. Harhar.

Back to the outing queue, next in line is the Gurango company outing. Thanks to this heaven sent event, another outing in the queue was dissolved. GYC was also planning for our next outing, and because of the Gurango company outing, it was called off. So that’s a really big relief for my bleeding wallet. I heard the company outing would be held this June, but it’s still ok. Harhar.

According to my computations, I would only have around 3K per month to spend on these outing eklavus. And that 3K can only be acquired by intense self-control over shopping! Grrrr! If only I’m not paying 4K a month for my new Canon Ixus 950i I could still shop and swim without worries of wallet dehydration. Grr. I want that big bag from Puma, and it’s 1.7K, or that big bag from Nike, which is 1.3K, or that super pretty big white Sisley on Segue which is 2.5K. I also want that cool everyday backpack from Rip Curl which is 1.89K, and that uber pretty red and black wallet with metal Rip Curl logo, which is for 1K. And also that long overdue white and gray Ipanema slippers for 800. Grr! I NEED MONEEEEEEEEEEEEY!!!

First Off ^_~ || Dropping Boulders On My Head

So there. I finally managed to overcome slothness in creating an account here at Blogspot. Now I gonna have to fight slothness in writing here as often as I can. Aheheh. Enough of the blah blahs, blog post prpoer mode... ^_~

I miss something that was never real, and never will be. Grrr.

Reality had reminded me of her existence by dropping a big big boulder on my head. Dropped it on me about two weeks ago, actually. It is about my recent depression, the one that peaked on the day when lovers are here and there, and single emo people's neck are an inch away from a rope.

I recntly had tons of thinking and I finally came down to a conclusion that my valentine depression was not because of my near-yet-so-far crushness. It was because of unfinished business I had with my ex, AJ.


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