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Wooooooot! =P Anyhoo. Since I use proxy to open Friendster in the office, and for some reasons proxies don't make me publish posts here in this blog, saving it as drafts instead, blog updates are always at my other blog.

As you all know, I'm a devotee of sloth and copy-pasting from that to my Friendster and Blogspot blogs defies that. So there, since you're not as a sloth as me, just go click the link above or, if it didn't work, go figure out for yourself a way to get there. Nyahah.

Anyhoo, I copy-pasted 4 entries here before posting this. I'm not sure if by the time you read this, copy-pasted entries from there here are up to date. Woot! Harhar!

Respecting Other People's Preferences

Shanky called me up yesterday to update me on his job hunting eklavoos. He said Lean called him yesterday and told him about Eckelz wanting to resign from his current job. Shanky said, "Grabe naman! Ang swerte swerte na niya sa work niya. Network Admin Assistant??? Ang ganda ganda ng ng pwesto niya, gusto pa niya umalis dun?" He was like, if Eckelz is right in front of him he could have given him a malupit na batok. Sabi pa niya, "Yun yung pinapangarap kong trabaho. Nakakainis naman si Eckelz, ayaw pa niya dun." And then I asked him how much is Eckelz compensation, he said Eckelz gets about 12K a month, and then Shanky kept on saying, "Kung ako yun ayos na sa akin yung ganung sweldo basta gusto ko yung trabaho ko. Nakakainis talaga si Eckelz!" Then he noticed that I'm kinda quiet while he was ranting his ass out about it. He then asked me, "Ikaw? Ayaw mo ba ng ganung trabaho?" and I answered him no. "Hindi naman dahil maganda yung trabaho na yun para sayo maganda na rin yun para sa iba. Parang ikaw, gusto mo networking stuff, ako ayoko ng networking kasi alam ko masmageexcel ako sa programming, pero ikaw ayaw mo rin ng programming kasi alam mo sa networking ka magaling, di ba?" Woot! Although I told him a couple of times already that maybe Eckelz' work preferences is different from his and that he should just let Eckelz be, he still didn't stopped ranting. Harhar!

It's kinda like letting people be no matter how grrr it is for you if you are in that person's shoes. Buhay niya yon. We have to accept the fact that people has their own preferences. They take their own choices and make their own decisions. They are the one who are living their lives, not us, so why the hell bother waste whatever if it won't affect you in any way naman, right? Not unless of course if you know that it will do him harm, not just to your own insight but to others, too, then that's the only time that you should butt in. Yung mga tipong gusto niya tumalon ng building kinda stuff. Harhar! Korniness.. =P

You should just let people be and live according to their own preference. It's okay to give advices or opinions but don't insist on them doing or believing the same way you do or told them. Don't expect to share the same happiness with everyone. If someone finds fulfillment in bitching around, then let them be. If someone finds happiness in disrupting other people's peace, then let them be. If someone wants to believe in the total opposite of what you believe in, then let them be. It's okay to try to make them do as you would but keep in mind that the choice is still his or hers. Buhay niya yun. Unless alam mong magiging kargo yun sayo o sa utak mo, kung dun siya masaya, pakialam mo ba?

WOOOOOT! =P

Gudlak-Pamster Week @_@

Last week I thought this week would be just another petix week in the office, only with some meetings about the tasks for our team's big project which we have to make through while our team lead is on leave for three weeks and Vinny acting as dev team lead on her behalf. Woot! Heheh.

Anyhooness. Monday. AJ and I were texting until around 3:30 AM in the morning, as we always do while he is doing call boy's work and I doing online window shopping in multiply, nyahah. When I told him that I'm going to dream land already, that's when he told me that it is her mom's birthday and that I have to come to Fairview. Huwatdapak, mehn?!? Going there without worrying about my mom's wrath means I have to work Shift A, which is 7 AM to 4 PM. I know I can wake up easier when I stay up uber late than sleeping effin early but it needs some conditioning eklavoos. I should atleast get 3 hours sleep so I won't get migraine-like headaches while watching movies in the office, wooot! Heheh. So there, I slept at around 4 AM, woke up at around, okay, around quarter to 7, took a very quick shower, then left for work at around 7:30, got to the office just in time for shift B, 8 AM to 5 PM.

Since I was informed about going to AJ's mom's birthday party at the uber wee hour of the morning and since I have to be early for work so I can leave early, yeah boi, I didn't have a gift for his mom. Grrr. But then I had this evil plan. I would go out during lunch break and buy her a big jar of her uber loved cow's milk pastillas, and where's that? In Greenhills, mehn! Yeah boi! =P And then I remembered that I saw Sitsitrya has a website, that's where I discovered that Sitsitrya has a permanent stall in Tiendesittas. Whew! But since I have a scheduled meeting at 11-12, I had to eat lunch before that meeting. Then off to Tiendesittas 15 minutes before 12.

When I got there, I went straight to Sitsirya to buy that big jar of pastillas and then headed to Fashion Village. Nyahah! Oo! Nagshopping pa muna ako bago bumalik ng office! It's because I'm wearning my Happy People Gurango uniform, and I feel a little dugyot already since I walked a million miles from IPI to Tiendesittas, so I figured I need to buy something decent to wear to Perbyu later. I don't wanna look dugyot in front of AJ's relatives. Ayos lang sana kung sila mommy alfon, lola alfon and tita Marie lang yung andun, they always see me dugyot naman. Anyhoo. 20 minutes of roaming around Tiende, I bought this puffed sleeved kikay shirt for only 100 then walked a million miles again to IPI. I was back in the office at around 1:05, still able to catch GYC having lunch outside Cebu. Heheh.

I also had another meeting scheduled for yesterday afternoon. Kahit pala pumasok ako ng 7 hindi rin pala talaga ako makakaalis ng 4 kasi 3:30 to 4:30 pala yung meeting ko, akala ko 3 to 4. Anyhoo. After the meeting, while Vinny was stealing my toothpaste as part of his daily routine, sabi ko sa kanya sabay na ako. That's a few minutes after AJ reminded me about SONA. I can't take Jayross to Fairview dahil ang mga aktibista at mga raliyista ay kasalukuyan nga palang nagpipiket sa Commonwealth dahil sa SONA. So he said we should just meet in SM North and take SM Fairvew FX from there. Sloth attack again, I thought of taking the Cubao route to MRT para 1 ride na lang, and since Vinny will also take LRT 2 in Cubao, sasabay na ako. But less than 5 minutes before 5 PM, Vinny was summoned by Augsie to sign something for their "group" certification exam on Friday. And then he was like, "Pamster, sama ka na sa Friday!" backed up by Augsie. And then without a single second of thinking, I said, "Geh na nga, pwede pa ba mag reg?" WOOOT! So there... Instant SQL Certification Exam come this Friday, meaning having to review Test King for only 3 days. Nyahah. Is this CCNA Certification Exam part two? Harhar.

Grrr. It was so traffic. And when I got to Cubao station of MRT at around 6 already, the line to the ticket booth was so effin long. Grrr. I'm not used to this anymore. Heheh. I got to Trinoma at around 6:30. AJ said he's still in a far far away place so I decided to do, again, some shopping at Landmark. Nyahah. I was looking for a cheap pair of firetruck red pants and found one for only 279 pesos. Too bad, I wasn't able to buy it because AJ texted me already. We were in a hurry, kaya ayon, hindi ko na siya nabili. Babalikan ko na lang siya some other time. Harhar!

When we got to the Fx terminal, okay fine, loooooong queue again, so we walked a million miles to SM North's Fx terminal to find, again, a loooooooonger queue. There's also something uber funny happened. Harhar! Well, for me it is. Nyahah. While we were walking, AJ all of a sudden just stopped and asked two ubeeer kikay gurls, one in yellow skinnies and green razor back top and the other... Uhmmm.. I really can't remember, but I'm pretty sure she's also colorful, heheh. Usually, AJ is a little hesitant when we need to ask manong guards if we're in lost kiddos mode, but that time with those colorful kikays, aside from it was so so sudden, no signs of hesitation can be sensed. Nyahah. I know some gurls might react to it by getting uber angry or something like it, but I can't help but laugh. I know for the fact that it was a total normal guy instinct to do stuff like that, but not in front of their girlfriends! Harhar!

Anyhoo. Since Fx lines where so uber crowded, we decided to take a cab after we bought cake at Red Ribbon for her mom. We got to their house a few minutes past 8 already. It's kinda like eat and run, because after we ate, her mom was insisting that we need to go because she doesn't want me to be home late and AJ also has work at 10. Nyahah. We left their house at around 9:10. Hindi man lang kami nakapaglandian kahit ilang minuto lang. Nyahah. I was home at around 11.

Monday pa lang yan, guys. Habaness! Heheh.

Okay. Now Tuesday. Heheh. I am scheduled today for my Developer Evaluation meeting with big boss Sir Joey and Miss Eya. I know the meeting is at 11AM. I was not at all in a hurry when I woke up at around 7. I was in my bed, texting AJ, until around 8:30, when AJ stopped replying, the green light indicating he's asleep already and I have to get up from bed to take a bath. I was at our gate at 9:40, and as soon as I had my ass on the tricycle's back ride, I received a message from Miss Eya. "Aabot ka naman ng 10 para sa meeting d b?" I was like, "SIYET!!" Taxi mode! I arrived at the office at 9:56. Wheew! Nyahah.

So there, Dev Eval meeting with Sir Joey and Miss Eya. My heart was surprisingly not pumping like there's no tomorrow but instead it kinda like stopped beating. Harhar! The result of the eval was okay. I was given an above average mark, but I know it's still not as high as my other monstrous dev officemates like Timmy Tammy, Vinny, and Ralph. I know I'm ranked below them all. Heheh. But still, I'm so relieved that I had met most of their expectations, and even exceeded on some, as they claimed, heheh. My move out fund will definitely increase. Woohoo! Kahit gaano kaliit na increase man yun, woohoo pa rin! Harhar!

With my instant certification exam this Friday, I should be memorizing TestKing right now, but my brain's just too lazy for that right now, so instead, look at what I'm doing... Nobela blogging again. Nyahah. Good luck to me on Friday! Let's see if the landeeh plans AJ and I had for Friday afternoon after my exam can still push through. Nyahah.

Owkaeipaynwatebur! Woot!

Noticing that my Firefox's bookmark lists is getting way too effin looong, I decided to clean the list up a bit. To my surprise, I found a bookmark of someone's blog. I had stopped reading it ages ago when I finally decided that I'll let that person be and ignore all poop she poops. If you can't help people in their pitiful state, just pray for them kinda stuff. Woot!

Anyweiz. I read through that person's recent blog entries, just a few, heheh, only some of those in the home page of that person's blog, and surprisingly, I found entries that kinda made me chuckle. Woot!

The first chuckle-worthy thing I read there was when she gloriously claimed that I had stopped blogging because of her. Grrr stuff made me stop doing happy blogging, but is happy blogging all I ever blog about? Technically, what really made me stopped blogging AGAIN was combined SLOTH and a lot of movies currently shared in our office network. Couch potato mode even at the office, yeah boi! Harhar!

Second. Nyahah. I don't "snoop" around reading other people's stuff to get "inside scoops" or whatever. I had stopped reading even my uber loved officemates' and friends' blogs because of, again, SLOTH. And ever since she was removed from someone's friends' list and I didn't have any access to her PRIVATE friendster profile, I thought I also lost access to her blog that is why I never even dared trying to access it. Not until now that I discovered that blogs of users with private profiles can still be accessed. Nyahah. Okay fine, I admit on looking at their group's friendster account once in a while to "snoop" on new albums to find new pictures to laugh my head off about, but that happens only like once every two weeks, not as frequent as seeing that account's headshot on my "Who Viewed Me" list which I clean up every 4 days, AT MOST. Harhar!

Owkeipayn. I guess letting her be still didn't make her happy. Nyahahah. I don't know if it will make her feel better, which I totally doubt, but I would delete her blog on my bookmarks after posting this, heheh. Again, as I always say... You can't force people to understand or leave you alone, all you can do is let them be and just pray for them. Woot! =P

Waldas Saturdays At MOA

It's already 3:59 in the morning, and yeah, here's the much awaited mood for happy blogging! Woohoo! Finally! Harhar... Although I still won't be blogging about Porky Pam's first birthday, nor my first saGuijo experience, I will be blogging now about two consecutive Saturdays of a whole lotta spendin' in MOA. Nyahah.

PART I : July 19, 2008

Last Saturday, Porky and I decided to go to MOA to watch Dark Knight on a regular MOA Cinema. Wuhla lang, trip lang namin sa MOA kasi sukang suka na kami sa Galeria at Megamall. Harhar! Anyhoo. We got to MOA at around 2 PM because as I had checked online movie skeds, there was Dark Knight sked at 2:30 in iMax. Yup! I really wanted iMax that's why I checked the iMax sked although we already agreed on watching in on regular cinema. Harhar! When we finally managed to discover where the cinemas are, we saw this effin long line of people on the ticket booth. Then I told Porky, "Tchera! Tchera! Let's watch Dark Knight on iMax na lang!" We were like lost kids looking for the iMax's effin location, harhar! When we finally got there, the only available tickets are for the 8PM showing, at the very last row. AJ has to go to his grrrrrr work at 10PM and as we know, Dark Knight is almost 3 hours long, so what we did was we bought tickets na lang for the 2:30PM showing next Saturday. Harhar.

After reserving tickets at the iMax we went to the SM Science Discovery Center. Harhar! We didn't really see whatever everyone has to pay 350 pesos for but we kinda had fun looking at the kewl toys at the store beside the ticket booth. Nyahah... We were so amazed by the kewl 3D puzzles of dragons and animal anatomies, especially the pig. Harhar! We also found kewl toys in eggs that you have to buy tokens because it's like in a gum ball machine. He really wanted the Mario Kart eggies. Aheheh. I also found there a pinhole camera for about 400 pesos, so effin cheaper than Lomo cams that you can use to take pinhole pictures, which cost about 2000 and more. Harhar!

Since we were not able to do what was really intended, we decided to do food trip instead. Harhar! We already ate at McDonald's near Mapua Makati before we came to MOA where each of us ate a regular burger, an upshaked fries, and one and a half spaghetti plus orange juice. Heheh. Then while at MOA, I don't know if it can still be considered as food trip, hahah, but we had large chocolate shakes from a stall there that has a picture of a bear, then we bought some brownies, ate them while we were walking around MOA, and then we bought kewl smoothies from Juice Avenue before we walked a few minutes near the bay. Harhar.

PART II : July 26, 2008

AJ said he will be at my house at 9 since our original plan for the day was to make potato salad in the morning, then get his hair cut in Galeria, then MOA! Heheh.. At around 9:10 he texted me saying that he was currently in a Jayross bus, which is his favorite bus from Fairview to Galeria, or vice versa. Harhar. When he arrived De Castro at around 10 AM, we first accompanied Yay to the vet to have Misty checked up for her cough. After that we did some happy happy bonding before I took a bath. We left De Castro at 12 noon, arrived in Galeria at around 1PM where I had to change from my just-above-the-knee shorts to a semi-pekpek shorts as AJ begged for a kikay outfit, specifically a kikay blouse and a kikay pekpek shorts, a few days ago. Harhar!

We thought we would make it to MOA just in time for us to eat before our reserved 2:30 iMax chuvaness. But grrrr. Traffic was so grrrr, we got to MOA less than 5 minutes before 2:30. We went straight to McDo, since it's the nearest fast food chain and because I want Shake Shake Fries, to buy food for take out. Kung minamalas nga naman... The crew that was serving us is still new and he kept on making mistakes about our orders and on punching it in. AJ and I was like "Owmaygad, 2:30 naaaa, oh pleaasseee..." Hahah. When we got to iMax, to our relief, the movie hasn't started yet and they were just staring to let people in. Harhar.

After watching the movie, the original plan for what will we do next was grrrrrly shattered by something that can't be really planned when to happen and when not, so we just strolled. Harhar. =P We went to the department store to buy the long overdue umbrella we promised yay as replacement for the umbrella she lent AJ that he left in a bus. Then we went to Watsons for some kikay needs.

AJ said he wanted to have coffee somewhere, sabi ko "Tchera! UCC tayo.." Harhar! At first, I kinda sensed AJ really wanted to stay there because of the view and because it was kinda breezy there. Harhar. He was really enthusiastic about it, until he got his eyes on the menu and found out how expensive the meals are there. Harhar. So, as originally planned naman talaga, we just ordered coffee but I insisted on ordering a chocolate crepe, nyahah. I would pay half naman of the bill eh, kasi ako may kasalanan kung bakit kami nasa UCC, sabi ko kasi sa pagkakaalala ko nung kumain ako dati dun nasa 200 plus lang yung mga pasta nila. Harhar. Pero kahit papaano, after we got surprised by the regular fireworks display every Friday and Saturday at 7PM, which we didn't know about, it somewhat lightened the weight of the wallet bleeding AJ and I was enduring. It was really kewl! Almost 600 pesos just for two coffee and a chocolate crepe, nyahah.

After eating, since it's already past 8 and AJ has work at 10 at the far north and we're in the south, we decided to go home already. Heheh. We tried to discover a new way to get to Galeria from MOA aside from what we did last week where we rode a Jeep to MRT and walk so so so faaaaar to where buses load passengers. We decided to wait for any bus we can ride there at the place where bus dropped us off on our way to MOA, that place near the big globe. We tried that already last week but we had no luck, but this time we saw a bus with an "Ortigas Ilalim" and "Cubao" sign. Without hesitation, AJ and I boarded it. Harhar.

While we were being mushy for a few minutes in the bus already, we then noticed that we still aren't in Edsa. That's when we realized, "Oh no! Round trip beh itech?" Nyahah. It was my first time to see a real life tarmac so near, and it was so kewl! Nyahah. I don't even know where NAIA is, all I know is that I'm seeing it right there. Nyahah. SO there, lateness galore to AJ. But what the heck? It was equal to more time with each other, making landeeh, heheh.

Today is Poyky Pam's 13th Monthsary, yehey! Yehey! I love my Porky uber much... I hope I get to have more days like these with him.. Heheheh...

Happy happy happy.... ^_________^

Hindi Nga, Buhay Pa?

Ang hirap talaga ma-ambush ng panibagong monster kapag kagagaling mo lang sa isang boss at halos paubos na ang HP at MP mo pati na rin mga ka-ekekang pang-heal eklavu. Muntik na naman akong mamatay ng hindi oras. Haayyzz. Yun lang masasabi ko.

Another sick metaphor, watdamadafakinpak?

Ultimate Martyr's Song?

It's almost 3 in the effin early morning. I don't even consider it morning. It's still part of my night. Harhar. In this effin everybody else's wee hour, I'm singing this effin song at the top of my lungs. Nyahah. Sorry na, late reaction na naman ako sa mga nauusong kanta sa main stream ng radio. I just feel this song uber much. So martyrs' song, so me. Hahah. I was actually looking for the title of the song with the lines "how do I get to our love" eklavu, but it turned out that the real lyrics was what I originally thought it was but thought was kinda funny in the ear and sounds a little rapist so I made myself believe that "how do i get you alone" was really "how do I get to our love." Harhar. Then I found this song's title in a list at the page's side, got curious and clicked it. So there, now that I knew I can effin relate to every bit of the effin lyrics, I can't stop singing it. And it's effin 3AM in everyone else's effin MORNING! Harhar. I believe this is the second time, for all my years of blogging, that I'll post song lyrics. Harhar.

Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis lyrics
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

Stress Ball Mode

Ang aga-aga, isang malaking GRRR na kaagad. Nakakainis talaga. Wala pang 7:30 ng umaga, nakaupo lang naman ako sa kama, hawak ko yung fone ko na kasasaksak ko lang para i-charge, akalain mong nagawan pa iyon ng issue? "Ano ba yan? Puro na lang sa lalaki umiikot yan buhay mo. Magasawa na nga kayo! Kapag oras ng pagaayos para sa pagpasok mo sa trabaho 'wag mo na haluan ng panlalalaki mo. Mahirap humanap ng trabaho ngayon, tapos lagi kang late!" WTF? 7:30 pa lang ng umaga, anong oras ba ako umaalis ng bahay? 9:30. Sakto na yon para dumating ng saktong 10:00 sa office. Hayzz.

Pero kasi ganito ang pinaghugutan niyan eh. Kahapon kasi pumunta si AJ ng maaga sa bahay, may dalang pancakes galing sa Pancake House. Gabi pa lang kasi sabi na niya breakfast daw kami ng sabay, pero akala ko drawing lang yon, hindi pala. Katext ko pa siya bago ako bumangon nun sa kama, at wala talagang kahint-hint na bigla na lang siyang dadating dun sa bahay na may dalang pancakes. Dumating siya siguro mga bago mag-8 ng umaga.

Eto kasi yung normal morning routine ko. 6 pa lang tumutunog na yung alarm clock ng fone ko. Babangon ako kaagad pero actually lilipat lang ako ng kwarto sa 2nd floor, dun sa kwarto talaga namin. Kapag kasi nagpaabot pa ako sa kwarto sa baba ng mga 7 uuratin na ko ng nanay ko sa pagising sa akin. Pagkalipat ko sa 2nd floor matutulog ulit ako hanggang mga 8:30 tapos direcho ligo, bihis, pasok. Usually sa office na ko nagbre-breakfast kasi oatmeal lang tinatangap ng tiyan ko sa umaga tsaka wheat bread.

So ayon nga. Eh 'di sabay nga kami nagbreakfast dun sa bahay namin. Hindi naman ako masyadong worried sa time kasi nga ang aga-aga pa naman. Siyempre, alam ko naman ang oras ko 'di ba? So natapos kami magbreakfast mga 9, manonood din kasi siya ng laro ng Lakers at Celtics habang naliligo ako. Eh bago pa ako maligo tinignan ko muna yung opening chuvaness nung game. Sa akin, alam ko naman kasi na 20 minutes lang ako maligo so hindi pa rin ako worried sa time kahit na 9 na nun, tsaka usual p ngang start ng pagligo ko kapag wala si AJ mga 9:15 pa nga eh. So ayon nga, tinignan ko muna yung opening kalandian nung game, sakto biglang umakyat si Ma. Gulat na gulat siya dahil hindi pa ako nakakaligo. Nagalit pa siya sa akin, "Ano ba talaga masmahalaga sayo? Magasawa na nga kayo! Ang hirap hirap maghanap ng trabaho, ayus-ayusin mo nga buhay mo!" Woot! Eh kung tutuusin nga ang ang aga pa nun, 9 pa lang, eh yung normal nga na ligo ko 9:15 minsan nga 9:30 na. Hayzz lang. Nung umalis nga kami ni AJ ilang minutes earlier pa yun sa usual na alis ko kapag umaga. Ang aga pa nga namin dumating ng office eh, considering na tumayo pa kami ng matagal dun sa may tawiran sa Countryside dahil may pinagdiskusyunan pa kami. Aheheh.

Grr lang. Nakakainis. Parang naging obligasyon ko na kasi sa bahay na saluhin lahat ng init ng ulo ng nanay ko. Tuwing na lang kasi mainit ulo niya sa akin kaagad siya pumupunta at isesermon lahat ng pwede niyang isermon sa akin, ultimo mga dapat niyang isermon sa iba niyang anak sa akin pa rin minsan sinesermon. Hayzz. Ang hirap talaga ng hindi sumasagot sa nagsesermon na nanay kahit most of the time hindi na naman talaga tama yung sinasabi niya. Hayzz lang. Tapos samahan mo pa ng mga kapatid na minsan na nga lang makakasalo ng galit ni Ma magagalit pa sa akin na parang obligasyon ko talaga na saluhin yung mga galit na yun. Hayzz. Ang dami ko pa sanang gustong sabihin, naghihimutok na naman yung dibdib ko kaya lang sa dami nun baka bukas ko pa ito ma-post. Grr kasi talaga. Lalo ko na naman tuloy gustong lumipat ng office na may malaking sweldo para makapag-move out na ako. Hayzz. Hayzz lang talaga.

Happy For A Happy Egoy

Although I made a promise that I won't blog about this, I just can't help being uberly happy for him. Heheh. Reading this, so far, probably would make him want to strangle me. I'm so happy for him, I really want to hug him every time I see him, although I hug him on a regular basis already, but recently the urge is different. Harhar.

The reason why I'm uber happy for him is because he found a reason to be "seriously" in love. Heheh. Even before he told me who it was, I'm already uber happy for him when he told me about wanting to settle in a serious relationship. For the Nth time, I'm really uber happy. ^__^

Grrr. That girl is really lucky. And I think, too, that he's lucky. Heheh. I never had a negative anything for him from the first day I met him. I actually like him because he's so effin funny, although some thinks he's annoying. Someone even said he's not boyfriend material, and I totally opposed it already even before I had heart to heart talks with him. And now that I knew how sensible this guy is despite others thinking that he's annoying and all that other shit, having to know him a little deeper than others dare made me love him. Love for a friend, that is. Nothing romantic, mind you! I believe he and AJ understand what I'm talking about. Harhar.

Now I know why AJ told me when we broke up that if ever we don't end up together, he would be happy to know I will be with that person. Those were the days when I'm so glad I have someone as effin funny as he is for a friend. No serious talks with him yet. Harhar. AJ mistook it as having a crush on him, that's why he told me that. Harhar. Well, I'm no hypocrite to say that if ever someone like him offers love to me and I'm single I won't accept it. Harhar.

Again, for the Nth time, I'm uber happy for him. You wouldn't really expect something like this from him especially if you're judging him already without even daring to know him a little deeper. I'm so glad I have him as a friend. I love him! Harhar! I really wish him happiness. ^__~

Are You Happy On A Shooting Star?

After exactly a year, two months and two days of not seeing one, as I regularly had for about 3 years in the past, today I saw a shooting star. Although I missed it badly in the past year, I never really put too much effort on seeing one, not until last March, when significant discussions and an unexpected event made me realize that I should do something about my longing for shooting stars.

A few months prior to that realization I had last March, I was scared of looking up to the night sky with the thought of seeing a shooting star. I thought it was so hopeless so I didn’t try that hard for fear of being dismayed. For three months now, I was able to shake off that fear. Every now and then, I look up to the sky at night waiting for one. Effort. Effort. I know I wouldn’t see one without any effort. So, in every moment that I had a chance, I would gaze up and wait for those now so rare seconds of it. So rare, for three months I didn’t see one.

But with all the efforts of waiting, something very sudden happened. It was totally unexpected; I was caught off guard. Someone saw what I had been waiting for in so long and bragged it in my face. I got crushed. Why to that person, and why not to me? It almost killed shooting star dreams, but I thought, I was the one who deserved it more than any one, I should get a hold of mine, so I continued waiting.

Earlier today, finally after more than a year, I saw again a shooting star. But what a big, big GRRR. The moment was far from remarkable. I didn’t enjoy it. Maybe it was because I was not in the right place at the right time, but still I think it’s not just the place and time. I have this feeling that I didn’t do my part well. It’s there. Silver dust striding to the jet black sky, yet being so overwhelmed by the fact that I haven’t seen it for more than a year spoiled it all, thus, making it so less gratifying. Grrr. Just grrr. I’ll just wait for the next shooting star. This time, I hope, I’ll be less overwhelmed and less tensed and bother by the thought that I might not enjoy it again.

So cheesy, huh? Effin sick metaphors. Damn. I totally suck at it, big time.